music : Bee Gees – To Love sumbody
Yes,i know i’d been changed a lot…seriously, some ppl said that i’d been sumbong for not calling them or sms them or even ym them. well, maybe i prefer to sit infront of my laptop..surfing to death,blog,favourites,fotopages,mp3 & stuffs!ho!ho! hmm.. love spend my time with adobe photoshop, unlead photo or other editing images software tools that had been installed in my lptop…!my regular activity during my notso free time! my chatting habit?owhh dah lama di-tinggalkan,maybe sumof them wud buzz me & said hi! but..for me?haih.. malas giler! so, BIG sorry to them OK. aan besides that, my communication skill also become lesser than ussual, well i dunno why? sumthin was wrong sumwhre, now i can only speak to sumone only bout 10 minutes on phone…that’s the MAX times! and..after that i wud say OKlah.. or let he/she to speak the rest. OWH.. what hellwrong happened to me?Not to mention lately, i have difficulty to remember where i put my stuffs and memorize ppl’s name! aaa.. SHORT TERM MEMORY lost? HA?!!.. oooohh..maybe byk sangat makan MSG?aaiihh.. nape?. owhh..please.. i’m scared really.
Besides that, if i were to illustrate the condition of my head at the moment, it would be like this space with so many things, scattered everywhere. Not quite within my reach. It’s the exact same way how i feel right now. i know everything is there. It’s just that i’ve not really sat down on it to scrutinised it all. I guess the time will come. I know it will. I just don’t know when. guess it’s true.i’m such a control freak,feel so lost when i’m not in control of myself. In a way, i feel like i’m so vulnerable when i’m in this state of mind, body and soul. i don’t like it one bit. i feel helpless and hopeless. ooh world it’s crapp!…HMM..sumthing suddenly bother me. and this thought…and yes i need togo sum places to get back the pleasure… free my mind tho… another shopping?eliminate this feeling!-> so hmm, it’s natural for humanbeing to seek pleasure and avoid pain..like me ya!.and dont get me wrong, i’m not emo! i’m really ok..i’m rambling the useless entry…becoz i’m bored & lonely. HOHOHO…..and miss sumone really bad!
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