a song for you… Wednesday, Nov 30 2005

music : tak mungkin…

ku yakini kau takkan terganti..
meski ku tak memiliki
dan kini ku akan pergi
meski kau kan membayangi
tak mungkin..ku paksakan..
rasaku..
berikan aku.
sedikit waktu
tuk ungkapkan yang..ku rasa.

ku hanya ingin kau tau
hatiku..
ku berjanji ku takkan kembali….

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hectic….& happy… Tuesday, Nov 29 2005

music : Staind – Right here

*class from 8-10am*hmm..normal laa…kalau agak ngantuks…hihi..kecian mr.meyapan..duk ckp sorang2 kat depan tu.hihi//lepas jer hbs class..kiteorg terus gi breakfast kat FCm cafe!roti telur satu (pergh habis diett aaa..=(..)..then, kiteorg(me,why,sha,yana & tash)… buat meeting..discussed bout the progress report!the experiential learning thingys… interviewed Dr.Umar Sallehudin..ingat bout 15 minutes…but then,jadi 1 hour..!!But one things bout him,he had really much-much of knowledge!perghh best.. when listened to the content of his talked!with his accent-well,neway he’s british!etc2….hmm… then, lepas je discussed bout interview..kiteorg pergi kat DR.fontaine…asked him back…what we shud do,shudnt..clarify things & clear everythings to make us more understand bout that “task” .etc..hmmm bout 3.00pm baru balik hostel.*penat*…need rest.

hmmm….sakit kaki la.. =(…~

*1 hour talked with him… absolutely makes myself happy…he’s one of my good friend… !!comfortable tobe with…!!”can cheer u up!…accept u,love u..care bout urself and most important things is to coax when u sad… hehe!!”(thats what he said)..so, what else do u want to expect from someone that u called a ‘good friend’ right’?

*giler….hehe..mlm gi mapleyy cheras…hahah…ingat nak diet but xleh gak jadi..hehe…=P. lepas jer mkn..balik mkn…terus berlari2 berjalan2..di pagi2 buta..eheh…giler aa…

oklaa… nak continue movie marathon with syida..heheh…:P

5.30am..still here!

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i know….who i am… Tuesday, Nov 29 2005

music : keane – everybody changing..

“i’m a big-big girl..in the big-big world…its not a big-big things…if u leave me…
but i do do feel… but i do – do will… miss u much…miss u much…”

i’m not hoping for anythings….
i’m just tried to think of sumting…”else”..
just to heal… this feels…
just tried to stop my heart from crying…
well, i know who i am… in this world…
i know…..
and everytimes..bad things happened to me…
i know….. maybe..becoz of me..
becoz of who i am……

*thanks..neway for the advice.. =) *

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monday for beauty…. Monday, Nov 28 2005

music : dygta – tetap milikmu…

1. hihi.. “kak ayu nampak cantik hari ni… slalu srabut…slekeh“…hehhe.. semua org duk tegur aku mcm tu hari ni…hihi..taktau la,mmg aku camtu..ikut mood..but slalunye..sempoi slekeh..la ke class…ikut aku je nak pakai ape..tudung ape!hihi..ntahla… maybe..harini..nak berubah kot! pakai pink2..girlie..skit…hehe…so..harini pun jadi naughty skit dalam lecture hall… but.. at the end,the moral of the story… “jangan suka nak kenekan org…last2 kene batang hidung sendiri…” ye tak shasha?huhuhu…*adoihh*

okla.. guess enough words..!shall go.. class.. 8-11pm!..chioww… hmm 3 hours direct lecture+lectured from Prof.Peterwoods buaat aku nak mati…sbb sangatla sejukk… pluss..short presentation each group!*sigh*penat…*

nak tido awal…nak bangun awal…!hehe.. =) so long & gudnite.

~moment to remember: a pic of my friends..sha,y,shakir,lin & diyana.hmm…bout 2years ++ ago..hehe..*memory nasi ayam BB*

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hoping for imaginary of “somethings”…… Sunday, Nov 27 2005

music : keane – this is the last time…

24/nov/2005

1. went home… sweet home..=)

2. movie marathon ->harry potters & just like heaven.

3. hmm.. suddenly,i feel i want to call him.hmm. i dunno..why!hmm..WHY?when everythings seem slowly disappeared..and appeared back!thanks anyway for your advised and listened to my probs.thanks coz i need it badly…hmm he always be..absolutely be a friend & my second best comforter ever.!everythings he said was right!-what i should do & shudnt!right?positive words!=)hmm.. i feel really touched when he said that he read my blog.thanks again,syed!hmm.. and he told me.. what actually happened to him now…i understand how he felt ….probably we in the same league..!but, i really afraid if u took a wrong way,think back..will u? and i do hope he wont do the same mistakes as i did. !!hurt ppl..and at the end,nothing i get from it instead of..gaining a very good lesson to myself…haih.. its over.i know =)..

To you… good luck too!

4. he called me…hmm… sorry, i dunno why on earth, i acted & been so dramatic n sensitive…hmm to the things that he said to me..actually. it was not a big matter.it just me who took it too critical.. made things confused..let it be..watever it be.*im in PMS mood!*hmm.. yah!i off my hp.. and he tried to call me bout 8times++..more and gimme all the sms-es.!hmm.. after that i realize. i shuldnt think wrongly bout him.he’s a good guy,a good friend….!dontwanna lose this friendship…… =)

25/nov/2005

1. outto clinic.
2. hmm.. …how to make ppl satisfy?? to be fair all the time..!!*dead*

26/nov/2005

-out tengok movie ngan kak eda,nini & dik la.. “pontianak harum sundal malam“..heheh.. then, sempat shopping2.hehe… bout 8.30pm baru sampai rumah. penat but sronok…

27/nov/2005

- a warm birthday wish..to Syed… and may Allah bless you. =)..InsyaAllah..
- balik cyberjaya…
- cancelled date with tini…sorry!
- penat…tido..
- watched “a moment to remember“(korean)…sedeyyy ooo… go get the dvd/cd!
- gud nite….chiow….

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status : the silence… Thursday, Nov 24 2005

music : tommy febuary6 – kiss one more time…

~i’m in the silence…mode..~[on].
~goin back home…

bye..

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beyond the grey sky…Sunway Pyramid-class-serdang!! Wednesday, Nov 23 2005

music : story of the year – anthem of our dying day…

1. wakeup at 11.40am!hihi…
2. went out with syida,fina & nita to Sunway Pyramid.had my 2nd lunch at HArtz Chicken Buffet…hehe…RM17 per person.”fina treats”..perghh… makan sampai buncit!Thanks miss fina.;)..then, tasha datang plak.. so after the late lunch.. we minggle around the mall,window shopping..jer sbb nak budjet!hehe..then bout 7′oclck mcm tu, teman tash buka buasa kat LAksa shack!hehe..bout.. 7.30pm mcm tu..kiteorg gerak from sunway..hehe.. giler tak sbb class pkul 8.00pm!hehe..but..unfortunately,kiteorg stuck kat traffics jam!gosh…sampai2 dah pukul 8.20pm!hehe…time tu, mr.kelvin(former student of mmu)…tgh ckp2..!he had been invited to tell more bout HR..interviews..etc2!hehe..then continued with 1 hour more lect..by Dr.Fontaine..!finally class ended at 11pm!hmm…continue with the few minutes meeting bout the monday presentation.!some incident happened!..oo gosh!sangat conflict & complicated!..ok.balik class…
3.few minutes online… pastu, tetiba..fina buzz.. uiks!ajak kuar lagi.. with syida &shadan.. kiteorg pergi serdang.hmm…lepaks & minum..hmm.. again,one more incident happened…bila ontheway back… suddenly fina throw up!sian dier…hmm..ok!laa.. sampai2 hostel bout 1.00am. erks.. thanks shadan..blanja kiteorg!hmmm… *penat*

aduhh.. aku pening… !mcm2 conflict… aduh!!pening!nak nangis..this my first time,i have to enter this kinda probs!!for evryone sake….maybe…nak tido…malas nak fikir,penat dah .. ngantuk..zzz…nite!bye…

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emotionally..speaking… Tuesday, Nov 22 2005

music : Angelic Upstarts – Solidarity

1.i notice thats these past few days i’mlackin of energy!hmm..the zest to do things are slowly disappearing.hmm…haih..!!today i spend 1 hour & half more sleeping after eating nasi lemak & swallowing the orlistat.haih… gaining more & more fat i guess!….

2.think it back and suddenly its mixed eACH OTHER and i really get confused.what & where i stand on now..?stop thinking?yeh..i do get exhausted of thinking of the same things over and over again. something to do with certain somethings. dont think that i dont. trying my very best to distract self from dwelling into it too much. but..this emotion,this thought wont let me stops.it conquered me sometimes..again!yeh.. i try hard..and i know, by now.. its slowly move away…!maybe i should learn to be patient… i can slowly see the small light now..even its far!and i firmly believed that thats a good sign from Him..

i know what i need to do is concentrate on the more urgent things like studies & assg or diet..!am i right?no used to get upset.hmm.ok enuff says… a lil bit emo. i think!well,thats me..real me..

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music : blink 182 – Adam Song

4. 30am : why in every circumstances that i have faced, am i the one who’s doing the sacrificing?have to consider ppl more…regreting myself for being too good to someone that absolutely 100% dont deserved it.finally,i learnt my lesson a very good lesson of mylife..i was stupid!and i think that was enough.for what reason i have to be patient for this kind of person,again.am i right?.there’s no used!and !think it back who is un-considerate now??yah..maybe u said u are right..becoz i put that status…and ppl read it!but, dont u know..why i did it??becoz u dont ever consider my situation.u selfish !-u know i’m so sick… it so damn cold…dont u feel it??how thick is your skin…huh?small tiny matter become bigger.. scold me…i hate it!yes!for this time.. i just stay calm and quite.. i dont even says a word..i tried to control my temper!!i let u..to …let it out!!ur dissatisfaction,anger etc..maybe..u said ur right.ok fine..take ur right with yourself!and let me cry..fine!thanks syida & nita..i blow my sadness to both of u…u saw my tears for the first time,right?…i cudnt keep those tears..more&more..burst it..

hmm..pressure & depressed & mood-less..so i decided to go out from cj. asked syida & nita to accompany me..jalan2..at bout 1am,drive the kelisa..and jalan2 kat KL..bb and etc2..treat them MC.D at 2.30 inthe morning.believe it??hihi…spend some minutes took pics.hihi..!hihi..yah.reach safely at cyber bout 3.45am.hehe.. .Alhamdulillah.

*-my favs perfume..jatuh & pecah!aduhh.. sedihyer.. why/..??-

“well i know..nomatter i said it enough, i just cudnt let it enough. Yah.. iknow i’m easily being sensitive,unstable emotion..will easily mad of certain somethings..but,i am a type of person that can forgive easily too…and become “tak sampai hati”..i’m not that ebbill enough…tobecome..that ebill..”haih,, wat theheal i’mtalking bout!enough!gosh..i’m tired,sleepy and right now..is..5.00am inthe morning!*deadslept* chiow..

…so long & gudbye

2.58am : quater pounder..

 3.07am :yeh!!happy2..after the cry

3.04am: ..makan-makan..

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www.dot-dot.com… (edited) Monday, Nov 21 2005

• music : Mr.Big – Baby It’s A WIld WOrld..

  “the weather is cool…rainy and gloomy… ..”!

• deal with ppl that easily says..words without thinking wat she already said..underestimated ppl so easily.. like she was right all the time. wtf la..like “we dunno that things & like stupid humanbein! so blind on IT!damn-la! hell la.. who cares!if u… the only one used the ’so called’ search engine “goggle.com” do i care? i dont f**ing care!we.. dont f**g care! hahah… that basic thingys that we can used to surf laa…!!hmm… yes!i’m harsh today!well i’m sorry… !well i dont know whether she read/not…. but…. please aa… dont act like u so brilliant+good+smart!.. ok laa.. for my good friend,sha… finally i published my words..hehe…exspecially for you.. and to us.. who knows what was goin on today…”the www.google.com” incident.. hahah.. stupid issit??- ok… i let it off my chest- relief…!inhale-exhale…..;)..ops!! you gal.. there’s other more polite nicely words u can say…instead of showing ur shit-ness way of communication to all…!![[shall go...class...]]
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wonderful day….Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra & Chicken Little….thanks bunny =) Sunday, Nov 20 2005

music : padi – masih tetap tersenyum..

9.37am : my status now : “masayume*>>{cant wait hours to come ->to MPO}[updated KL-12.30am-3.30am entry]….

“ok….let me tell you the story……”

*bout 12.30pm bunny reach cj.. pastu.. tolong fix kan meja study aku!hehe.. sian die..sampai peluh2 die.. then…we headed to.KLCC..hmm forgot to mention that we had to wear formal attire.!hehe…sampai je KLCC..sempat si bunny tukar baju.:P.. well me? aku just pakai my red kebaya!erks… hmm..bout 2.30pm kiteorang dah ade dpn hall tu..then,bout 3.00pm kiteorg leh masuk… so, this my first timer tgk MPO..hehe… life..seronok sangat..classical music..!
(Conduct by Claus Peter Flor, and the piono played by Vladimir Feltsman)..hehe..the show end bout 4.40pm.Thanks bunny for the treats!hmm, then we headed to Midvalley..plak. Long queu for the tickets…. we decided to watch chicken little!.hehe… the show started at 7.20pm.. before that we had our late lunch at Kenny Rogers ,pray.. & minggle around and bought some stuffs.then… entered the cinema.H,mmm.. best sangat citer Chicken Little (forme la..) full house!and… yg seronok sume leh gelak2… hehe… and the chicken was so cute…..damn-damn cute.(tengoklaa..kalau nak gelak guling2& u wont regret!).then…citer tu end bout 9 somethings… then… bunny send me back to hostel.thanks alotss… bunny.. it was so damn fun goin out with you… btw, u look really smart+cute when u wear those formal..stuffs…huh??hehe..

oklaa… i think.thats enough.. =)

i’m so tired & need rest badly. chiow…

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