i dont want to think bout u…please!! :( Friday, Sep 30 2005

music : anything but ordinary!

this song makes me thinks of someone!
i tried to elude this feeling but i cant!it was too strong tied up in my thought. still conquered half of my hart badly.
i know u happy much now.. u get what u want.. i know u… much.
all bout u.. what u like what u dislikes
i’m sorry if i cry now.
i cant help it.
sorry ..i write bout u again..
know u wont read it..
until now.. everythings still the same in me.
eventho, many things had happened.unexpectedly.
i learn much of myself.
knowing some ppl…do appreciate me.
other ppl do care bout me.
but why?
i cant open myhart?
i’m still thinkin of u?
i’m sorry..
i’m stupid!todo this to myself
but seriously,i dont want to think bout u..
its hurt me..
but i cant.
please let me out!
i dont want to think bout u..
but i still read bout u..
i still keep ur 545 msgs in my mobile.
i still keep ur pics in my album.
i still mention ur name in my prayers..
why must i keep those things? i cant delete..i wont
it was too precious for me…
i dont want to think bout u..
why must i think bout u..
i know u happy now..
i let urself go…
coz i really love u..
i dont want to think bout u again.
please.. i dont want our memory… it was too much.
too much i know bout u..
but why must i still keep it? again..
knowing that i only can love u from far.
im sorry.. i love u.still..
i cant.. please pray for me..
so that i can forget all bout u..
so i can stop hoping from u..
help me…! help me… please…
coz i dont want to think bout u!
more..and more..
i’ll pray for u… always.

what will happened….. after two years from now?eh!!!i dont know..

sincerely;

ida@yu…

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hari yang indah..Midvalley to Klcc..meet nice2 ppl. Friday, Sep 30 2005

music : padi – demi cinta

i had a fun time today!..

best! well… aku just nak tulis all the beautiful part!
hmm…

jumpe old frenz from Sban. bout 4 years takjumpe.

kiteorg gi Midvalley.

he was nice cute!

lepak kat Sushi King & borak2.

…thanks.

=hmm..then, bout 6pm plan nak balik..
=tetibe, dpt msg&call dari Ben!
=hehe… free2..dapat banje movie dari die!
=hahah… tengok movie plak kat KLCC..
=citer korean *Red shoe..* hmm… agak seram ,pening & terkejut2…
=abih movie bout 11pm sumting.then, terus balik CJ..

sambung gossip ngan SHasha.
*waaaaaaa… nak nangis… aku ade alergic sumting ngan Sushi King nie.
abis badan merah!sedih2 *

k la.. fun time.. mebi! nak tdo…bye

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Protected: fat depression……….(motivate diri..from dugu) Thursday, Sep 29 2005

music : hanya untukmu…

hmm… tetibe je nak buat status giler camnie… “nape aku gemuk?aku tak suke gemuk …arghhh… cepatla kurus!!” hehe… !!!

hmmm.. depressed..

tapi baru sedar, ape yg aku fikir slama nie tak betul!mmg tak betul.. sbb.. ade org still sayang & concern kat aku! appreciate aku! ish.. sedih aaa….

hmm tetibe dugu msg!tak pasal2 dpt advice baik dr die.. hehe..

azman asini: isk..isk….
azman asini: nape mesti benci gemuk?
azman asini: xde slhnyer gemuk…
azman asini: cuma insan2 yg xtahu menghargainye yg xsuka
ayue: hmmmm
ayue:
ayue: nak kurusssssss
ayue: dugu
azman asini: iskk…
azman asini: lek arr….azman asini: yer

etc-etc…

azman asini: ingat kurus tuh…
azman asini: semer lelaki ske ker?
ayue: xtau laa
azman asini: mmg la advantage
azman asini: tp…
ayue: bg aku kurus itu cantik
azman asini: ader gak yg bkn tgk paras rupe
azman asini: kurus xsemestinyer cantik…
azman asini: kalau perangai xelok..
azman asini: org bkbn wat stok bini…
azman asini: tp tackle nak ajak main…
azman asini: ngerti?
azman asini:
ayue: hmm aku baik
azman asini: hmm…
azman asini: aku tau
azman asini: ;d
azman asini:
azman asini: dat frens for aite
azman asini: so…
azman asini: langkah pertama untuk motivate diri mu…
azman asini: tukar status
ayue: ok
azman asini: dulikkan ckp org
azman asini: org bkn tahu pasal diri kiter…
azman asini: kiter jer yg tau
azman asini: gemuk…kurus…itam..putih…cantik..huduh…
azman asini: semer ciptaan Allah…
azman asini: dia tau aper yg diciptaNya..
ayue: hmmm betul la dugu..
& etc…

oklah… sy tukar status : *hargai dirimu…karna dirimu begitu bermakna….*

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*terbaik untukmu…* Thursday, Sep 29 2005

music : -

00.31am : i shall sleep now… my first ppr will start at 9.00 inthe morning! wish me lotsa luck again ppl! =)..see ya!

5.15am : thanks for a person who had send me a celender alarm to wake me up just on time!& thanks for a person who called me 3minutes late from the time. thanks a bunch!ya! – continuin mylast revision!

9.00 am : exam…

10.30am : finished 30minutes early!hmm Alhamdulillah… the questions was quite OK! i hope i can score this subject!insyaAllah… hmm…the next ppr is on Sunday,2nd Oct!i’ll be prepared! OB.. hmm… might be tough ones! adeh…=(

11.am : brunch at Tapah… the only mamak restaurant in mmu!OMG i ate nasi brani!hmmm:(.. so,by hooked or by crook,i have to getoff my ass & go for a jog this evening burn the cal & fat!oohh shit!! i hate both of them!piewww..pieww…then went back to hostel!…

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life…..is unpredictable…weird sometimes! Wednesday, Sep 28 2005

music : Crumbs

5.46am : guess what? i still cant close my eyes.!i cant sleep!i tried so many times..hmm.. maybe due to..powerful *pearl kachip fatimah*.. seeping into my body & brain cells.control everythings already..hold my eyes from fall asleep.the insanity of final dipression drag myself to try that things,inorder to stay up much longer than i ever expected.gosh! well, nothing i cud say… just this few days i spend much of the nite at the library,became a libr geek & dominator till morning!… discussed with AZeroi ,Lokman & syida bout IS thingys.. and late nite dinner with them at Dengkil.got back to the library & studied till 3.00am…back to hostel.etc..haih.. i’m tired! (merepek dah…)

* HAPPY… BIRTHDAY SHASHA… (hope u likes my cute present! hihi…)

5.55am : i’m alone in this room..im incredibly feel lonely.hear the slow,love song! yes! i cant help myself.. when i think of somethings.. when i looked at one things..when i hear…everythings. why mylife is likes this? turn tobe liked this? how i wish.. everythings.. am i in the right path?. i’m confused!.which one to decide? or just being incredibly selfish to myself. i wish i can let everythings out here!but there’s certain part i cant write.im still hiding it off. without everyone notice!tried tobe okay all the times!to make everyone satisfied.*sigh*.. i cant escape the truth…of myself.

- do i have to think somethings unnecessary right now other than exam?
- do i have to think bout how i miss someone likes hell right now?
- do i have to think , think.. of everythings?
- why my mood swings ? issit becoz pms? geeezz.. its suck!haiihh…

* my first ppr is tomorrow… shall resume my study! wish me luck!

( dont make any stupid assumption here…this my blog.. my rules..i free to write anythings i want.. if u dont want to read… so dont ! okehh? heheh…)

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the reason….for everythings.. Tuesday, Sep 27 2005

music : silverchair – miss u love

*Live and let live* that’s my mantra for the day…

Thy said : ppl come into our lives for a reason. They come into our lives at a certain time, we learn from them, and then they leave at a certain time. and that is the way it is..

Although i dont generally like to think about people in such a functional manner, again..but i can see their.. point, and it is somewhat comforting…

when im confused to decide! whether or not..i shuld open myhart back. force myself ?Issit the right way? or play a game!death game? i wont!i’m confused to accept..coz i dont want any rebound. coz i dont want to reopen!because only one reason… for only one!the precious ones!

its that whole ‘everything happens for a reason’..again im saying this!If there is a REASON for everything, then everything is fine, we don’t have to freak out about everythings right? just wait..the truth will comes!maybe..i do hope..everythings back to normal.many beautiful things comes, i missed it right now!.. yah..my wishful thinking!…live & let live…
yet.. im confused again!

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and its ok… Tuesday, Sep 27 2005

music : never be replaced..

tried to calm u gal…
i know how u felt..coz i feel the sameway too…
i know.. ur good gal…
u deserved someone…good!better..
coz i really know u…
remember what i said…
pray lots!i know u strong!
time will heal everythings..insyaAllah..)

(words for my good frenz…far2 away…!!i miss u,gal..hope to see u someday!.)

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everlasting… Monday, Sep 26 2005

music : frequency cannon – girl!

monday mood…

8.00am : i woke up! hmm…miss subuh!haih…. =(.i wokeup inthe really blurry condition!i knew sum1 wokeme up early inthe morning…but who?..ish2..then..i checked my mobile.. hmm..yeh!one received call at 5.51am!?..(dead slept).hmmm…

10.00 am : start doin my mundane! *kemas bilik*swept the floor, washed the fan..mopped all the things..!

11.40 am : mum cal, dah bank in..duit! hehe.. yepei.. untuk final!hehe..best ..

12.00pm: showerin..

1.10pm: oklah! shall study!bye ..

1.30pm : damn!!!!!!!!!!!f****g damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!shitt! urghhh!!im sorry if all the words here are so damn harsh for u to read!this not my intention.but the situations made me!complicated!..(aku rase aku dah blow sume benda!)…okla.. nak stadi.bye2.

4.30 pm: check my counter! perghh… great no of visitors.maybe sbb status aku..dah menggambarkan ape yg aku rase!..

5.00 pm: chat nga Ore-a..my x-dormate back to Sc Muar!hmm thanks sbb concern ngan entry nie..gossip2 ngan die. hehe…die pun agak pelik camner aku leh marah! sbb.. mmg aku jenis diam je..bengang pun diam jer!alih2 aku jadik camnie! ntah la…

5.45-7.00pm : spend jogging ngan syida..

8.30pm : library!ngan syida..lokman & azrul.. shall go. bye!

1.00am : balik hostel…

1.40am : shasha dtg..

1.50am : virtual consult someone!

4.00am : tido… hehe..

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i cant help myself at this fine moment! Monday, Sep 26 2005

music : Dewa – Pupus..

Aku tak mengerti … apa yang yang kurasa
Rindu yang tak pernah … begitu hebatnya
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak akan pernah tahu

Aku persembahkan hidupku untukmu
Telah … kurelakan hatiku padamu
Namun kau masih bisu diam seribu bahasa
Dan hati kecilku bicara

Baru kusadari cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan
Kau buat remuk seluruh hatiku …
Semoga waktu akan mengilhami sisi hatimu
yang beku

Semoga akan datang keajaiban hingga akhirnya
kaupun mau
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak akan pernah tahu…

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am i…what i am? dont u think? Sunday, Sep 25 2005

music : padi – semua tak sama..

*song? : sangat suke this song! lamer tak dgr.. td, dgr kat dlm kete si Lokman… skrg, nak dgr balik.. sangat banyak memory with this song! long-long ago.

*study? :agak mls…!taktau nape!skrg dah final exam week… pergh… tensi tgk orang stadi.but serius,now takde mood nak stadi,better dok diam2 dpn laptop.

*makan? : gosh! nyesal giler..biler mlm ni mkn byk,dah mkn nugget pastu mkn sandwish.eih.. berat turun naik balik kang! ish… baru pk2 nak beli jeans baru!ptg tadi dah la tak exercise plak!tetido.. lps balik library!adoii..

*blog? : save draft entry before thz.!but entry yesterday.. sgt best!ishh… rase nak gi Melaka lagik.hehe..tringat otak2.(tunggu org blanja aaa…seafood!).mebi.. some ppl satisfied ngan entry tu.

frenz ? : hmm… betambah2 lagi frenz kat mmu nie!..hmm..ramah2 skit! termasuklah auntie kat cafe Sirah tu..yg penting, hati mau baik…mulut mau manis… ! kan id@yu! ?huhuh..

face? : adoii… pimples out!tensi.!

diri sendiri? : ok jer.. camni gak! nobody knows.. sedang memuaskan hati setiap pihak!!

lain2 : dont worry!im ok.. !

(p/s: ini blog sy… sy nak tulis…sy tulis je..takmo bace,sila jgn bace! )bye2!

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