So its begins…..
11.56pm : i cannot lie to myself…everynite..every minutes…im suffering with this feelin..i wish it never happened…i wish i can turnback time, so i dont have todo all this…all the faults…now i’m having thoughts in my mind that’s haunting me really badly.i wish i can go through all these!…everytimes i pray for the strength…fightin all this…!!all alone… then i feel alone.How’s he? im afraid to predict how he’s goin…!?with whom?..and till now,i still write bout how i feel, bout how i fight all these…hopefully i can stop it…but my thought keep circulating..thinking…so much things!…maybe im the one who think this way! ..=(
i still the same person…never changed..!my thought,my mind and my heart… and, and dont worry i definately knows..the reality..but!me is me…!!im ok..but, i still missed all the beautiful things…knowing that it wont happened again. but, i still live with that memories…..always!!it shamed to live with it ..somethings that never exist…but,it already happened..a part of my longest dream combined with my stupidity.
owh…i dont know…what else todo!..i done my assg!finitto!!..i already did some revision…i already called mum..!hmm…i shall sleep early..now..tmrw class at 8.00am..
gud nite…sweet dream…miss him…
