…. Wednesday, Jun 29 2005

So its begins…..

oh damn.. so this is what called the “writer’s block”.
lets just put it in point form..

1.)hmm..night: Adv stats….tried so darn hard to understand those Stat thingys on the whiteboard and on the notes…and that Prof. aayaahh.. so quickly write2 on that … and it caused my head been pusing2 all the time…!hmm.. and we have to form new group..with yana,sha,Tash,y,savistry,prima and Epul…..i’ll tried to put so much effort for this subject~i know i can!gambate @yueeeeee;)

2.)guess i have to start reading those Att Theory,Mental Model & Behaviour Modifacation now… coz tomorrow..meeting will held at 12pm with Prof Stadley! hehehe…*mate dah ngantukkkkkkkkkkkkkkk laa………………….2.05am =(

3.)tiredsome!..i simply cant understand ….my weaknesssses that i cant barely get rid off …and maybe becoz of time..im stumble upon it!..=(..do i have to say love is SUCK sometimes??nomore transparents..:(

why…and why…?

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hmmm… Tuesday, Jun 28 2005

silence mode…

i love what he said tonight…he loves me..only me..in the whole rest of the world…of all 6 billion ppl..and me too syg..if..i cud…if i would..i know, i had such bad attitudes that will simply makes him jealous and angry…and we will argued a bit after that..but.. for all the truth ..i love him…i really do..i meant it..and nobody can change that………………….i love u…i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…hehhehehe…..mwahhh..

hmm…do he really deserves me??? do i really meant for him…tho we had huge chemistry from the start i knew him…!!and tho i already knew knew the truth..i still hoping somethings for somemiracles.. i knew..everythings happened with a reason…reason i knew..i fall..and i met him…and i wish it cud be real…with no end!

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urghh…i hate ..i hate… Monday, Jun 27 2005

So its begins…..

lastnight…seriously..i know im notthat kinda girl..im not good tobe tobe too good forhim…the truth i amso dem lone person..with noone.. i feel right now… with lotsa probs.. its not simple as what ppl see..and i just cant turn back back time to correct everythings in the past…seriously noone know…how i feel..worried..and mixed up.. i really need someone…but i dnt evenknow…how..urgh..why somany things hit me now…???What should i do??…..let the pressure…keep pressured..!??

I hate her…hmm.. for the first time in mylife i become so rude to person..i can be rude to person that front me.. urgh. do i have to respect her?urgh… we keep argued… urgh biar! nak buat die sakit hati lagi! biar….so what??…

hmm… just came back from Syida’s room… we talked lotsbout our bfs. huhuhu…the best issues of the night instead of that biarch issue!!….;)

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111980218932015244 Monday, Jun 27 2005

memoire….with my huney cumy..

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111980216573822436 Monday, Jun 27 2005

my bed for my dream & imagination

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pleasant sunday… Sunday, Jun 26 2005

So its begins…..

pleasant sunday…

i cant sleep lastnight…probably i sleep nearly 5am..then i wake up bout 6sumting when i heard the clicky sound from my laptop!…*the P-pain..* and etc…was really hurt…painful..and why its so bad?=(…

night: i went to Alamanda just to buy some fattening food that i really craving forit! ?ahahah….jejejeng some incidents happened before i walked in Alamanda…where i nearly kene saman with pakcik police coz i didnt park at the parking place….Thank God..i realized him..when i saw he was walking and on his way to saman a few cars infront of me…and i quicky changed my car to the right parking lot!huhuhu…moral of the story dont be so stingy..!!hiks … then,im goin back to hostel and i hav lotsa work todo..* printing jobs* !!:P..doin 2 plus 1 job.. printing while eating MC.D yum2 …

i called up my dear.. but he was busy watchin The Apprentice.. hmm..he said he wanna called me after mandi and iron baju, Ok i’ll be waiting and i hope that not the same things happened like yesterday.

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the truth… Saturday, Jun 25 2005

So its begins…..

THE TRUTH..TRAIN OF THOUGHT..

hmm morning i feel really urberly tired, hmm…i was suffering with periodpain… and unbalance mood and emotion..urgh its hard being a woman,but wattodo eh?..and becoz of that,i have to rest-rest and i had to cancel dating with my belovin boyfriend.miss himbadly..!i started toget emo…and fight with him just becoz of small things…hmm..why should i?i feel like love is suck sometimes..and i hate him when he said a lil harsh..just becoz he was in the badmood..And, i become too selfish becoz of my situation..*P-mode* where i badly need deeply attention from him…we argued again… and often because of something so small.. and often we end up being upset, no matter who was wrong or right… and i think this is just a phase, and that this is going to mature… is it healthy or not? and we never really want to be in a fight actually, coz it will hurt so much…Hmm,as what people say, you wont feel pain as much if you dont love as much, and when we fight i feel like my heart is ripped off… so painful… …

But i love the way we are now, the situation where we are beginning to assimilate… where we are balancing each other, and maintaining the composure… something that we should talk about, is not always something that have to be filled with laughter, we should look at things that is sensitive and serious, though we shall laugh harder at the end of it…coz he always makes me smiles in my hart…

He is my motives, one thing that keeps me going… and i’ve been in tranquility ever since…i love you Syedz, and always do…

~!!

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its a very long story… Thursday, Jun 23 2005

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3.14am:unpredictable, been sellfish.. myown right..with a huge reason.!.. lotsa things happened to night…Honestly,it really hit me to death again..making quick decision..without measuring probility and the longterm..!hmm… confused with all the stupid thingys..where the past really haunt …!i cried..thats what i hate most! cried becoz i feel i was alone…and its suck!darn…only God knows everythings…hmmm.. yah!… the times i write this…i just cant help my tears keeps runing down…again.I was listening to Glenn, Mimpi Biru song ..i pondered to somethings that really wonderful…perhaps better to help me to get back mylife..smile if i can..He just too good..!…

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i love tonight… Wednesday, Jun 22 2005

So its begins…..

proud showing him to my friend…and my frenz tini gv nice compliment..bout him.Yah.. i knew my dear is nice & handsome..:)

hmmm….i just love the way he treats me tonight…i hope..it will last forever..!!..he keep telling me that he needs me…and, if only i could..! why do ppl have this kinda feeling yeh???….. and there’s a part when i was so curious and i asked him, he was alil bit late and hestitate to answer it!*i dont even want to think bout it..and hurting myself…to think bout it…*coz wat in the past someofit was reallyhurt…*….=(… plz..!!forget!!am i guilty enough??..i love him..somuch, and all i want is to love him…*my man*..:)..i cant help it..miss him.lots*

warghhh very tired woo… so here: today story!!

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messs up!!! Tuesday, Jun 21 2005

So its begin…

Today story…messy-messy-messy…

And below… pic taken at 2.40pm…heheh messyyy things on my table!huhu…:

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