So its begins…..

hiet!!

listening to : Mr- Children – Kuchibue

*finally the day came! ~the truth of all truth…

*my 2 seconds call to Japan at 3.10am…. and his last call to me from Japan after my 2seconds call, good morning!!way to Narita Airport!~memory from Japan had lasted…since 13dec 2003 till the last fine morning today!!….

i’m goin back to Cj! yeh.. & i’m not well at all….
and packing all my stuff has never been so hard,wwhre i have fuckloads of things to bring back to Cj and i don’t know how to make it all fit in beg..just some books..shirts..and other stuffs!hiargh..hiargh…

wether i can make it or not! i wanted to meet him at KLIA today!!……
i wait for the bus straight to terminal Putrajaya for bout 30minutes..,,,and i was happy but i stilll got …. man, its been long 2 time aku tak naik bus, just 50cents…then naik ERL for $6.20 kinda mahal gak…. while waiting for d ERL….i got a called from him…he just arrived!shocked! mix feelin…. sad coz i didnt yet sampai KLIA…he was waiting for me……………………….callingggggggggg meee…………….mmany times!!!!!!!!!!……….i was runinggggg from him……………………i act like stupid dumb fool lil girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!………………………..i dont know what the hell i was doin……………….. stupid!stupid!stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!……………tears is what i had!……….hold on ..please hold on …..and i just can see a glimpe of him……….with his mom,dad….and others…i’m sure him…..really sure….but whyme………..?????????????????????Ya Allah…. i’m not strong enough,i was waiting for this guy for such long2 time….yah he called me back when he was having dinner at Alamanda……….mad at me!totally mad…………………………..speechlessss……………..i deserve it………..i’m not ok….not ok at all…………… do i still gotta chance? or maybe………………………

back!!i almost fainted….damn perut sangat sakit when i was walkin back to hostel!! i cudnt walk at all….tired sangat!!!!!!!!….cam kete lalu dok pandang!! relax..cool2…dunt wori i am ok!!!~ just jadi drama Queen jap jer!!…but damn perut dah cam crammm…thank goodness sha was helpin me…nak gi Gomez tutup plak!!peluh2 sakit….cube macho gak tahan….& sha also trying to calm me dgn situation aku! walked slowly went upstairs….sha datang and bagi ubat sakit perut tu……….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!then tdo….!!! and i wake up………….after 1 hour sleep……….. really…i’m lost…..totally lone……………….end. maybe*

12 lebih am earthquake….!!! memula ingat apela….dok shaking meja…or…& i thot i was shivering* then… my fwens nye status sume uat earthquake!then….all news spread oout giler cepat!confirm another 8.5 sr earthquake jadi kat Sumatera so, KL and kwsn2 sewaktu dgnnye also gegar!! wah…. takut2!!!….worried kat die… die dah sampai ke??

*he called me from his home………….. hmm….erks! speechless… “sorry!!” nothing more i cud say!!…..but donnt you know i was so scared of loosing//..plz.that’s the main reason.

till then…sleep…