its begin again today…..blur morning Monday, Jan 31 2005 

in the past punzshyt 10:42 am

So its begins…..

i am suffering much pain lastnite… probably its hurt me exaactly in my tummy.. ouchh!!gurl sickness…!!sleep late at bout 4.30am..hihi..sleep wif my new..butterfly pilloww…

by the way, thanks.. for wake me up thiz morning ben!! erkss.. i’m late for my dicussion and thanks for being a rescuer for me(wink**)….hmmm i wake up on my notebook and ave sum cet wif o-are my dormate back to Samura… actually i was quite bluring at that momment..soweii… i’m not chat much… i was kinda bluring and sleeppyyy…. and bla2……10.30am, go and showering myself….. but i feel like that momment i ve being a sleepwalker….ahhahah… ngantuk giler… but, sebab dah promised & ade group dicussion, so i got to force myself…(yawn…for bout 10times…)… downstairs bring along my notebook…and start discusion… find the appropriate solution for the bus probs..!! i dunt have any idea to start making the formal letter…my mood is bout swing2… y is coming and joining us…( nyibuk jer.. hihi) but,lately ni he been far from us…not so closed..and all of us missed him so much, but today he came and talking wif us… i’m still in the bluring mood… thez one part that everyone wuz laughing at me… ( the part when i was totally at the highest level of blurring…).. my back is aching=(..i need sumting to support myback..& i need sleep… (to be continued…)…

hmm…
ehmmm, he might being quite busy lately, and we dunt ave much time to talk, or asking bout each others…!i dunt want to bother him… hopefully :P ..

i was telling him that i miss sumbody,i just cant holding it anymore… i hope what i had told him will not ruined our friendship,i just want to express wat am i into now..then he asking me ” did u still contact wif the one u miss?”… and i absolutely said “of coz” but seriously, i didnt know issit the ppl that i miss also feel the same way….as i do,he just forgot to read my blog,less chatting,cuz he had much works to do.. he dunt have enuff sleep & time… and sumtimes he forgot to ask me…his regularly questions…etcs…=(… then.. he replied ” yah, at least ur not going to lose the ones u miss..” end of the SMS…( “mebi..**)

tonite, i read one of nuts blog, and what she put inside… makes me thinks of sumting… turn me to sume negetive thought or…might positive!!i just hate whaat she put inside her blog.. and..my mood swinggs2 again… i need to off now… its time to rest & duing some other jobs.. end….. but i dunt…

(thanks for my close fwen,for the topup number….)..

 

this is the fucking song…LALALAL… Monday, Jan 31 2005 

in the past punzshyt 1:26 am

So its begins…..

This is a song for the ladies, but fellas listen closely. you don’t always have to fuck her hard, infact sometimes thats not right to do, sometimes you’ve gotta make some love, and fucking give her some smooches too, sometimes you’ve got to squeeze, sometimes you’ve gotta say please. sometimes you’ve gotta say hey i’m gunna fuck you…..softly, i’m gunna screw you gently im gunna hump you sweetly ….i’m gunna ball you discretely and then i said hey i brought you flowers, and then i said wait a miniute sally. I think i’ve got something in my teeth, would you get it out for me? thats fucking teamwork. Whats your favourite position? escuu with me it’s not my favourite but i’ll do it for YOU. whats your favourite dish? i’m not gunna cook it but i’ll order it from Zanzibar….
and then i’m gunna love you completely, and then i’ll fucking fuck you discretely and then i’ll fucking bone you completely, but then i’m guna fuck you hard haaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaa rrrrrdddddd……

JACK BLACK….

 

dunt let me….fly wif another wingss…cuz i feel i’m gonna starts a new wing rite now… Sunday, Jan 30 2005 

in the past punzshyt 9:42 pm

So its begins…..

wokeup a bit early this mornin,bout 9.30 mebi…. wish this cud b the beautiful morning ….!!i’m went for lunch wif mye this afternoon having KFC original recipe, yum2…then i accompany mye wif shopping2…hihi… bought new shirt, then.. at last i bought mydream butterfly pillows purpless.. wahhh sangat comel…. at the maggie T, and i bought the keychain (purple..butterfly ) at the same places..also!!
my lurvely butterfly keychain… :X Posted by Helloi lurve all the stuffs there..really itso dem cute aaahh..hmmm!!ok next, going back to Cj bout 2.30pm, 30 minutes after that, liyana dah call for Critical Thinking Assignment discussion…then, i got turun bawah coz buat discussion kat cafe…and bring my laptop…. hmmm, time tulah nak fikir any possible problems and discuss solution and advantages & disadvantages…. masing2 dok buat part masing2… nilah part aku!! then after settle benda2 ni kene buat letter to the CEO, hmmm sume kene ade related ngan Cric Think nie… aaahhh.. sangat banyak teori nak buat!! we have to be hurry sebab kene pass up on Tuesday nite…hahahah….hmm we’d ended our discussion at bout 7.00pm…then,…naik balik atas =P

* thanks to him for let giving ur hand,helping me wif sum ideas…crashing bit ur head wif my probs.. hah!!& i knew mebi this quite wasting ur time coz ur also busy wif ur final thesis rite??sorry coz i bit bother u….disturbing ur Naruto!!at bla2.. sorry again…a bit gilty for thats.

i am spending my nite dealing wif the assigmnet & be a gud listener to my lil sista..!! wish too… hm!helping her, together wif shasha.

~hmm i feel scared rite now, i dunt want toget anymore trouble in mylife between..plizz

~4.08am.. i am so damn tiredness… just came back from shaz rrom…
~ sakit pewut….=(

this is my butterfly pillowzzz… :)

 

then the lurve…slowly spreads away…. Saturday, Jan 29 2005 

in the past punzshyt 8:18 pm

So its begins…..

its saturday…and its holiday…
i wish i can put much story for today just like yesterday…
it was eppy knowing when sum1 just dream of u,rite…hahhaha…:P

today ape aku buat?
~basuh baju
~makan
~
~gitur lesson wif sha2
~& tido… =))
~b.o.ri.n.g
~work!work!work!….

hmmmm…. tunite dah stay on bed early at 1.00am…..gud nite!=)

 

thankss…. Friday, Jan 28 2005 

in the past punzshyt 1:56 pm

So its begins…..

I don’t feel very well…my throat is sore and my mind is slow!!….due to sleep late & woke up late,… spend lastnite wif muvi marathon!!~hihi..
hmm mornning wuz boring….i bit lazy and look at my bed ,u see all the stuffs wuz really mess..hahahahha…!!and my poorly lil teddy just nearly felt down & stuck between the wall & bed..!!.sha2… & nani came to myroom… asked for lunch but i’m still not taking my bath yet…hihii..(pliz gimme.. 30minutes to prepare myself..and both ofthem wait for me at downstairs )…!!ok..lunch over!! go for next session which is..work session!!gess wat?? searching & surfing for artikels bout the business problem … to define the business probs & write a letter to the CEO of the company..gosh i hate this part!!!hard for me to decide & find the best article for this assigment…!!but at last dapatlah satu..simple & easie to understand….pastu cam ngantuks plaks…take a nap… plan nap bout 15minutes… tengok2 dah lebih plak… sampai sha dah datang,knock dedoor and me dah blur2.. dah la ade group discussion infront of library aku boleh lambat2 lagi..bangun2 dengar org berleter buat aku….aduhaiii merungut2 aku…pale pun pening…last2 sha yang iron my tdung..(sorry yer hunny)….!!!..

(depan library: sempat bloging cuz i bring my laptop …wireless connection.. time to wake up sumbudy!!sori ehh…turn u to blur ??- rasa cam guilty plak)~hmmm ben, sori for another 2 times, bape kali ade invitation…aku terpaksa said “NO” again=P)….. class..marketing class : todae its about ads.. so today ade video case study, at about 40minutes …..and diccusion for 10minutes…. abisss…..!!!…

huhuhu…i lurve my statcounters.. hmmm, count all the visitors yang visit my blog everyday,since i published new nie, aku rasa happy sebab at last aku tau sape…nye IP ni… yang kire everyday lurve to read myjourney of life…since dulu2…. feruz rupenye…. =)!!!puaslah aku gess orang bukan2.. ihihi..nyesal jer tukar name blog :P !!…..ok..proceed my study..exam math minggu depan takut2….shuffoff terus mynotebook……bile online back just to see sum1,but die xbalik lagi…xpelah….!!

another lonely nite =)

 

its still sames or wuts??? Friday, Jan 28 2005 

in the past punzshyt 1:56 am

So its begins…..a.g.a.i.n…

i posted for the second times… sumting urged me to write sumting again inside this lurvely blog again,…now at 2.00am..(wat actually i shud do in this time?)..wats a feeling!!~ ~shameless tobe the person that i’m not,but i still have a hart thats neva been lied…to my attraction lies in the expresivness of my features, cant i said that? for whom that owiz says tats cute that am i not..am i too gud for sumtng that bad or vice versa??i can feel i got a tremendouse ability to forgive ,and i found with in me through who has hurts me…cuz every fault, every mistakess & i learned to forgive thats what mom owiz told me, i learned to understand… i been cursed with the ability to sense other ppl, so deep, right there in the deepest depth of thier souls ……am i obsessed to sumting that i cant hardly get it….?dem!… i’m still searching for my life..to hold on, a place to stand on & a space for a lil trust ..How i became like that???I was not born this,is a mistery even to me,a mistery to ppl who come in contact with me, seeing this truth that is reflected in my face alone,& thy often resulted in disbelieved and mistrust. and after all i get hurt, but it is worth it,bcause i try and not trying is what i regret the most because if i do not try i will never be true to myself when i only know what it is i want…!rite?wat does a man knows about a gurl likes me…??wat do thy feel?i dunt want to trap myself to this sorrow..foreva..i want to letgo..letgo…

i’m clueless to think more…
then my wireless connection starts to turn to low connection… so i have to switch & insert wif the network cable….ritenow i was absolutely depressed to the person i belong…plis dunt get me wrong…i’m weak at this momment of time but i will strong somehow…shud i or not expressed all this in this ….i can feel the hiedeous, pathetic…of myself rite now..suckk!!!!helpless…think about thepast time…i made my life in the past very hard & easy but then again i have captured so many moments that would take a life time for others, and this i will not definitly shared…i got less of guts to stand lone..by myself… i just remember sumting lastnite when i hadchat wif my frenz, famie.. he owiz courages me to find sumting by myown.. try to stand on my own feet,independence….think bout future….i likes the way he predicts sumting..the way he thinks..sumtimes…

* sorry for asking the same questions for bout hundreds times….eventho
i already knew d answeee…y u asking me back bout this blog…?
*i’m curious to know but i hate the truth….of it.
* i was crying while ur was sleeping….
* blaming myself for sum reason….arghhh & everything u done just cameout mymind..
*i’m trapped beneath a man that i donot know much yet but i know his rythem so well…i trapped wif this sort of feeling…
* a lil tears wipes all the happiness back…the answers that wudnot been satisfied
* would u ever consider my presence in ur life?
* dunn0 wat hax or crap did i writeee…. bengong dah pale otakkkk….

* trying to convince myself everything will be fine sumday,sumhow…i will got my happy ending… InsyaAllah…

~sesaat malam datang
menjemput kesendirianku
dan bila pagi datang
kutahu kau tak disampingku
aku masih disini untuk setia…..

 

another…….thursdayss… hihihi Thursday, Jan 27 2005 

in the past punzshyt 1:00 am

Yikeeessss!!! i woke up when i woke uppp!! …my wakes times and my sleep time mmg dah makin jauhlahh… hihihi (teruks)… ma lil sha came to my room, sempat discuss bout critical thinking assg…..

ok2 cut the stowei yah…gi class management at2 till 4… pastu baru had lunch tupun makan roti sardin je:P. balik je masuk bilik sangat2 lah panas..y mesia skang ni.. =(, kipass max pun still rase panas..bahangg… hotssss…..hotssssssssssssssss……. taktau ape pale cam pening sangat tetibe..mebi tak cukup tido..or sebab panas sangat so then i decided baring jap….tengok2 terus terlena…7 ..15pm baru bangun..!!=p dah terlupe ade class critical thinking at 8.00pm tapi bile check kat MMls, takde plak die letak venue kat mane, sebab tu class ganti..sebab dah near 8.00 & sya pun dah sampai so..kiteorang pun terus je pegi, assume die uat kat lecture hall tempat biasa jer, pastu onthe way tengah jalan2 tu terserempak dengan Aina… mmm then die cakap class critical thinking cancel… aduishhh tensi gaks… penat2 je jalan2.. xpelah think postive exercise kan??? so….aku pun gi bank kuarkan 30bucks untuk topup..tapi bile gi mart, salah beli plak… aku nak topup celcom terbeli hotlink…naik atas baru perasan..hihihi….xpelah.. nak uat camne…..topup jelah… :P

hmmm malam yg boring… so kite layan muvi “little black book”….=(…it just a simple story, xtau nak stori camne…. tapi, its all about curiousity of a gurl to her man… and her man…wif his x..or gurl.. or i dunno….& all the things then,she figureout..and she makes sumting… and at the end???…

wish i will find my happy ending…. one day!Amin… =)

muvie finished bout 12sumting, pastu…dah xtau nak buat ape2…. sha & nani came to my room..pinjam bluetooth kat mynote buk… then sembang2… wif mye… :) … hmmm menariks kan…from my perspective… mye nye attitudes.. just same as me… & the way she is… so,im comfortable wif her… :) wat a nice…..!!!

oklah….2.21am… wanna watch DodgeBall… end… n.o.w… ta!! nite..

4.08am : sleep wif a lil miss of sum1…. =)
whats a fwenshipsss….

 

helu…..!!! Wednesday, Jan 26 2005 

in the past punzshyt 7:08 pm

i cudnt sleep well lastnite, dunno y.. panas sangat2 in myroom, and i slept alone.. sedih pun ade gaks… tapinak buat camner…!!& mebi aku takut…!!

okeylah citer pasal clas plaks cam biaselah, arini start class pukul 10am.. 9.15 ade orang kejut aku… 5minutes before that, mai dah balik and tanye aku pasal class…hihihi… memang aku rasa letih sangat,..mandi2 & siap and terus gi class management..tutorial for one hour, then rasa lapar & gi breakfast kat tapah makan roti telur wif nescefe ice..yum2…yang best luper arini takde tutorial math…hihi.. lepas je makan2 terus balik2.. sempat gi booth gema2005 untuk order tshirt, cun gaks for battle of the band 15 february nie..hihi.. besh!! ade audition agi..=P tak sabar nak tgk hhuhu…hmm hari ini kat Mph ade Dialogue Session pasal Cultural Gap Between Euarope & Asia and its Impicatiions… 3-6pm…..featuring Tn Dr. Mahathir.., nak pergi pun cam takboleh cuz ade class at 5-6pm…miss the chanced to see him.. =(…

gud news untuk clas micro.. hahahah..midterm telah ditangguh pada 22 February!! =)sebab die dah reshedule hahahaha…. besh!!!

ok stakat nie… midterm:

16 feb : Critical Thinking
22 feb : Micro
26 feb: management…. (math mebi oso)

yang lagi 2 dunno yet!!! hihihi

ok… balik2 jer class kiteorang makan.. mee bandung yang sangat sedap, first time try mee bandung kat cafe ni..hihihi…sekarang ni nak awalkan makan cuz mlm dah malas nak turun!~…

True…

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I’ve waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true…..

hmm ouch…. nite i cant sleep… at the end i waiting,waiting every half an hour sleeping….& felt to sleep after nearly two hours be wif…???

gud nite…

 

tuesday holidayyyzz…. Tuesday, Jan 25 2005 

in the past punzshyt 4:36 pm

then the storiessss …..

taipusam2…

hari ni cuti and sangat seronok sebab bangun lambat bout 12.30pm baru bangun hahaha.. sangat seronok hari ni, everything seems so fun, lepas lunch wif shasha & nani kiteorang borak & lepak sampai pukul 4pm..all about lurve story & howlife cud be…!! hmmm how nice she told me bout her boifren…!!hmmmm wat is the best things cud be than being wif our lurve ones rite??nomatter how mch time we spend wif him…we can feel thez too early..and quick..!!!and how does it feel?… to lurve & being lurved… such a momment that we wont forget…. and u wil remember it foreva…. iwish… but only time will decide…:P

nite… enjoyed reading microeconomic….. =P…

then, i feel bored.. so… how bout surfing, tetibe rase nak bace all my blogs.. all the entries..oldskul, from dejavuu.. my personal blog (that i will not published it), and this blog… banyak sangat benda dah belaku kan?? sum was eppy… sum wuz sad… but apepun, memori2 will owiz wif me…& tht person too…[promise]…

“lotsa work at skul eh?? hmmm now 2.27am.. i dunno wether i can wait for u or not, got class tmrw at 10.00…. beta i sleep now.. but i will wait for u in my dream..miss ya.. ta “

i dunt wanna wait…. for alife to be over…i want to know right now what will it be…!!

 

back to cj… :P Monday, Jan 24 2005 

in the past punzshyt 6:53 pm

TODAy story is all about….me again

hmmm i was wonderingg… wat shud i put in today!! =P.. hhihih.. wake up early inda morning cud be the hardest things i hardly cant do… huhuh.. but, when mommy keeps babbling2 at me.. and she opened my door room for about third time and gosh!! i had to get up from my love-love & amoire bed… hihih!!…packing all my stuffs… take a bath.. and bla2…. siap!!drive all the way to cj… =P.. for me tho cyberjaya is quite boring place wif no shoping complex or cinemazz..but i lurve this place,calm,quite.. enviroments inside cj .. !!and i save quite lotsa money here compared when at Cheras dulu…huhuh tat cause me lotsa trouble… whez i will or i must go out at least one day in that one week…hihihi.. spend my time & oso money for sure,chill out…:P..& forsure no such things cud be free… !!likes business… :P , “the onli place u can find free cheese is in the mousetrap..:P..”

ok next….

sampai cj bout 1pm.. lepaks.. and assual,switch on my laptop & stay connected ..wif d internet…=P!

okeh petang ade clas critical thinking..till 6.00pm..and today class end bit early!!

nite, i’m not feeling well.. pipi dah panas, kite minum rebena untk vitamin c..i got sorethrout..& tonsil cam bengkak.. =(…

tak mo moody malam nie.. cuz i wanna be wif him.. wif eppy moments..and thanks. u makes me smiles.. :) and seriously, i laughed back!… say my names..say my names… :x ..till u fall assleep..

 

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