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Saturday, September 18, 2004
nUtiNg tO sToWiEEEEEE……. waKe uPPPP moonInGGGg……. n g to go woRKKK!!! huhuhu… n the stowieee wuz the Sameee….. huhu!!!worksssss…n suCKKK!!!!~~…….Malasssss skunGGG ni dunno y… asIk tadeee mooDD naK kiJErrr… arGHGHH…. ariNie.. adE CikGu tuh sOh ajarrr guna softwaRe kat sCanneR tuh.. aDUhh… nak ajaR ponnn buKan reTi sGT.. naK kene Take tiME… taKpelahh… Kire aDe gaKs kijer mengaJAr w/pun bIT teNsi gaKS.. ajar OranG xpaham2… hihihi.. saBau jer laaa… 
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huRMm.. arIni.. cuStomerr biT ramAi gaKS laaaa… normaL la.. SaTurDAyyy… huhu… tp.. byK stuDents UniKL dTg… hurmMM… ade sowaNg stuDenT uiTM ni carik Cattridge…bli catridge sampai tadee duItt..hihi… tp, sBB uncLe baik.. so die banjer thiz guy ni makaN…maCam2 ciTEr la…arini….
arIni…. akU haBis kiJer kuL 6.30..bLk2 gi bLi friekiss tuK ma Juni…n then bout 6.48… kiter pon blk….lepaK2… n toniteeee.. asIk gayutt jer dgN Hide… sampai 1.30am kott.. since kuL 8.00 lebeyy die cal… stop.. mkn..till hbs card tuh..n die bli lg.. continue balik…. ntah ape ciTEr pon.. tatauu… till mate aku rs ngantuk sGTTT…n tetidoooooo….. gud nite then….. :X…:-* hueemmmm… ape yg plg penting….. we both know…we luv each other… n wont let go….
ayuee teame at 1:29 PM
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Thursday, September 16, 2004
tudayyyy.. stoweiiii… ihihii.. worrkkssss penattt!! arghhh cakit kaki akuh niee… hurrmm…. ape yg besh.. pon, ttg kijer??… huhuhu… everyday.. luking through the mirror.. tgk lil kidiee.. Methodist Tadika depan tempat kije aku nari-nari.. cute je hihihi…..:P….as usual laaa… after 6.00 baliksss… arghhh penah je rase nak drive 
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ayuee teame at 9:24 PM
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Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Hurmm…same stori…. hd to work!! n work… wake upp bout 8.00 n missed call Hide… n kite gi Mandi, n ma mum angkat… soweiii…mandiee.. bile kite cal blk, kite plak xdgr…n xjwb… gi kije bout 9.05am sampai…blk kuL 6.10pm as ussual laa…..
hurrmmm… blk Kijerr.. rs letih gilossss n titun.. wake up2, tgk dah kul 8.00pm.. hihii.. letih sgtt.. then, rase mcm nak cal Hide, tp kite cal direct.. n he call me back! hikss.. hurrrmmm boraks2.. till pewutt rs lapau… hikss… n pegi mkn.. mum masak ikan masak lemak.. lamer xmamss.. hiks… then, continue online.. skype wif Hide… tp die cam bz ceting wif Sharifah tuh aku trasa laks.. hurmmm.. then, aku layan la Firdaus yg asik2 merajuk.. arghh.. tensi betui… trus aku steath setting kan die to permenantly offline, didnt mean todo that tp, cam terpakse nak buat kan … .. sbb aku dah xlarat ngan sikap die tuh!!!.. hurmmm.. then, teteibe Slym online.. bit lame xcet ngan sharul.. amik pic seksi die..hihuhuhu.. then, sbb nie… buat Hide majuks ngan aku.. hurmmm.. hurmm didnt meant to hurt him coz i luv him more than thiz..hurmm, then.. probs ni makin teruk biler.. Slym cal aku… n he call me again…hurmm..coz die kene stay opis.. bit latee..!! hurmm biler dah bout 12 sumting…mate aku cam ngantukss… juz skype ngan hide…n masing2 mcm emo.. ntah la.. maybe he’s rite.. kalo kite dah close n syg sangat kat org tuh.. juz small2 thing pon leh jadi hurt.. n kite akan fikirkan…hurmm thiz is wat we called LUV..sumtimes.. makes us eepy.. n sumtimess.. hurtt..!!n pain…aku pun rs peliks.. i neva got thiz kinda feelinggg… pain…but still… go on wif it.. maybe luv aku lebih dr rase pain tuh…hurmm, aku rase aku jahat coz.. ckp “jangan buat lawak bodohh eehhh !!” maybe words tuh buat die trasa.. n i’m really sori, coz kite tgh mad!!temper… n cant control itt!!~~i knoww… maybe kite xbley fikirr futuree wif him coz i neva meet him n xde ape leh kite buat..even.. maybe aku pernah ade create object die dlm fantasy aku.. same as he too..~i only can hope n pray for itt.. n i trust him, tu je yang boleh kite buat skung nie…trust him.. neva cal anyone, or skype wif any1…n trust him ..when he said.. he remember me omos everytimes..n he luv me-only me!n wif that gurl?..i juz have to sabar-n continue ma sabrrr…..even, sumtimes.. dlm pale otak akuh nie fikirrr…. whr ma luv is?if thez other luvss..oso?? puhhhh lizzzzz….. all i know… i juz luv himmm…n dun wanna cry in pain again…. tak tau la sampai kul bape die borak ngan aku, after twelve die cal.. till nearly 2.00am maybe… till mate aku n die dah ngantuks.. ntahla.. i juz hope, he will sleep after thizz.. i hope noone will cal him, after he said i luv u to me….n let me be the last he think.. before he sleep……
GUD NITEEEE.. taaa…
ayuee teame at 7:10 PM
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
I HATEEEE TODAYYYYYYYY!!!!
i dunno…. hurmm… 6.30am aku dah terjaga… n cal Hide… hurmmm…. n i wuz sad.. try to forget bout last nite….bab kene marah tuh, hurmm faham.. bukan slah die, coz die br bgn tido… n kite lupekan.. w/pun terasa skitt..:(.. hurmmm…. then… die soh ayu carik lain… its hurt me… i’ll find others if he wanted to…, die buat aku sedihhh.. arghhh, tetibe emo.. n kuar air mate..!!cant control ittt… wat does he feel saying that wordS?…wat does he meant/?maybe thiz week aku akan jd emo sensitive sgt… i can feel itt…tp, even aku sakit n sedih camner pun.. it wont changed anytings…ntahla… neva let go… but… u let me go….:(… waiting till january?? or …asking me to walk away????
tensi!!!keje cam bluRRR…. aku rase aku xbley concentrate pd kije aku … n aku pon ade probs bile jadi camni.. kene marah ngan aunt.. keep thinkin’ everytime.. mase aku driving…:(.. sedeynyer rs… hati aku, is thiz love?…!! maybe aku xstudy susahn,xde big probs.. n maybe thiz nuting… but its still distracting me…n i cant do nuting… !! i’m juz nuting…i’m alone… noone cares except ma parents…
10.05pm:hurmmm…..letihnyer rase.. tired,,, dpn Mr. Blog nie..
BOSANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!
ayuee teame at 9:38 PM
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Monday, September 13, 2004
THE DAY..THE MOMENT…PRECIOUS…
5.45am… huhuhu.. the spirit of graduation..ma convocation day!!! huhuhu… !!!-wake up dahh~~its hard for me eceli.. butt.. had too… ,!6.25am dah mandi… n siap2.. tuk..check out.. !!7.30, had breakfast kt hotel..bekfast kat Melia ni nott so good macam kat Concorde.. but.. oteyla.. maybe.. pewutt aku dah kenyang fikir hari ni n nearly eight.. kite dah kuar from Melia.. to PGRM.. damn itt!! jalan jammed gilossss.. n i’m stuck on in!!.. pray to AL Mighty… hopefully.. sampai aaa before 8.30am.. alhamdullilah, aku turn to jalan peel… trust dapat short cut trust PGRm… hurmmm but still stuck mase parkingg.. n aku terpakse kuar dulu wif mum.. n ma “maktih” tolong carik parkingg…!! hurrmm.. arghhh… kelam-kabut!!**** aaaaa… hurmm nak pakai jubah tuh lagi n that thing yg letak atas shoulder….pening kepala… hiks….!!!huhuhu.. tp, alhadullilah… sempat laa.. mase queqe tuk perarakan masuk, ramai lagi yang xsampai.. de last ones yg sampai yelah :Why… :X.. encem die time tuh…. guys course aku sum namapk macho, dieorang pakai complete suit so.. nampak handsome aaa.. girl lak.. comey2.. tp, bile dah pakai jubah tuh, dah xnampak dah sume tuh…hihihi.. …!! but sedey gaksss… maybe to day wud be the last day spending time ngan dieorang… n die shakir…zam.sukri ..n shai.. nak gi Coventry dah.. yang len2 lak.. maybe futher kat tempat lain… arghhhh ….sedeynyerrrr… ady…tasha…n etc…. tringat aa sume2 dieorg…all the memoriess… wif Y, Shakir n sukri…..Shasha.. tasha… member lunch sesame.. kat gerai luar college kedai ibu…everyday, mesti lunch same dieorg… !! wif Zam… membe gaduh… shasha..!!wif Liana, Mai… membe project!! master prog… !!so boleh dpt markah lebey ngan dieorang…(take advantages ni)!!.. wif adi & Ida.. membe mapleyy memalam n membe hang out…. n oso wif Y..!!- tringat shakir n Sukri.. membe cab aku mase kat Riveraa… huhuuhu..pepagi, sesame naik cab ngan die org gi kolej, mase sem1-2… ..wif sara- weirdo!! huhuhu… thiz gurl i dunno laa… huhu.. Sara..!!the debater gurl in clas.. ade je rs xpuas hati.. n maybe noone likes her attitudes… she the bala..bla… but.. die otey je ngan aku… Hikss…!!Yati.. de sopan santun gurl…wif azie.. hikss.. (ingat trajedi kat pangkor.. wif Azie.. sedey betuiii )….Azie rajin… n she a gud2 gurl… dapat anugerah dekan lagi tuh n anugerah perak.. giler aaa… …hurmmmm…sape lagi…!!???….
terinagt lagu Vitamin C :
“Graduation (Friends Forever)”
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25I
keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn’t know much of loveBut it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We’d get so excited, we’d get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels
[1] – As we go on
We remember
All the times we…Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still beFriends Forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker m
Will Heather find a job that won’t interfere with her tan?I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to flyAnd this is how it feels
La, la, la, la:Yeah, yeah, yeahLa, la, la, la:We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?Can we survive it out there?Can we make it somehow?I guess I thought that this would never end *And suddenly it’s like we’re women and men*Will the past be a shadow that will follow us ’round?Will these memories fade when I leave this townI keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye*Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly
hurmm konvo tuh abis nearly 1pm.. aduh.. bile abiss.. puas aa cari ma mum… tp xjumpe..coz ramai gilos org…nak cal plak xbley coz hs kat ma mum… (… last jumpe gaks! hikss.. jumpe2 je ma mum die kiss kiter.. hikss n then ma maktey plak…hihijhdapat two bouque of roses n lilies dr dieorg beshnyer… hurrmmm.. then, mak cakap ade owang cal nak hantar bunag.. but ma hs dah block! salah masuk pin code … then, kite kene cal Maxis tuk retrieve puk no…. then, kite cal org hantar bunga tuh.. soh die hantar kul 2.00pm, tp dlm 1.15 die dah sampai.. dah la aku bz dgn sesi photography.. haaa.. tensi.. n hectic!! but… last2 sempat gak amik bunga tuh.. n .. i know.. its form Hide.. thanks lot.. really appriacate it.. i really hope.. i’m the 1st n last for him.. to accept the bouque.. hopefully.. …. the words inside it.. wuz so meaningful to me.,, let me jott in here….
“My Precious Ayu,”…” Congrates! Really proud of u… though i’m not thre, u know i’m alwiz there in your hart…”"moi pou toi” – Much luV – Hide..&
today oso ma 9th month anniversary knowing Hide… rase touched jer….
continue dgn sesi photography… but ma camera gotta probs.. dpt amik 10keping jer.. coz battery die dah nak abis.. arghh sedey giloss.. rase ///… hurrmm…..tp..nak uat caner.. … arghh letey betui rasee… pukul 3.00camtuh..dah stuck kat ujan… tp aku terpakse berlari g parking kete, amik kete sian plak tengok maktih…paktih n ma mum.. berdiri… huhuh..under the rain…!!.. trus balik… ikut highway.. onthe way.. lunch kat seremban.. mase tuh dah 4 sumting… lapar to the max aaa… …sampai umah bout.,,, 5 oclock.. trus cal Hide.. die mase tuh kat Lab.. hurmm, saje kaco die..!!cal him up.. say ma thankful to him… for that bouque of pink roses… n dok boraks2 bout everytinggg…ss…..hurmmm bout ma konvo ekceli… hihihi…
hurmmm……then, pas kite borak ngan die.. i fell asleep.. bout 7.40 br bangun…huhuhu……!!letih.. coz as usualla.. jadi driver nie.. ngantuk to the max mase drive td pon, kene drive gaks!!…red bull kene stand by jer..hihi… that nite, aku install Skype.. quite nice aaa internet pone cet ekceli.. much more cler compared to y.m vc..then.. sudenlyy.. biler aku surf2 n fikir bout skype.. all the negetives thought tu dtg.. n i juz thinkinh bout her… tteibe aku jad bad moodd….!!!etibe aku rase jelesss…then, bile jadi camtuh!! aku jadi tension… n sedeyyyy .. bile cal die…aku kene marah gaks.. ngan die… die tengking aku… argh!!sebak je rase… … try to sleep///n hati aku sedih… aku try pujuk hati aku… gud nite…
ayuee teame at 9:32 PM
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Sunday, September 12, 2004
7.15am keep thinking… early inde muning…3.40am, i cant sleep n i call hide up.. sowei disturbing u early inde muning.. but he said.. itsok..he feel like talking wif his **** issit? funny!!he called me back coz i called direct line…dunno the topic..!!maybe bout “Dia”.. the lyrical bit confusng.. wat is the exact meant of it?? urmmm.. 7.30a.. packing all ma stuff. to day nak g keyel.. tomoloo will be ma graduation day.. at last… hurm, tuday i leav e ma home, ma hide.. hurmm..
7.50am:..sudenly ma mind trinagt the last2 nite thing.. n it hurt me..!!noh puhh lissss.. dunt start again.. enuff all the pain.. i juz think bout him, the positive things.. hopefully it can make maself clear..all the mess in ma brain!- hide, du u luvs me the way i luv u?? du u meant it??!!ur words.. i’m the only ones he luv.. trust him, n face hez weakness n his bad!!yah…i jz hope he’s knew wat he’s duing…n plan to do…!!how can i stop maself..to think bout thiz.. but if this only the creation of dream.. let it be the greastest dreamm…eva!!**
8.05am: bit ngantuk.. nap for a while… 5 minutes is enuff.. ZZzzzzz
gonna miss ****..
wake up oiTTT!! wake up…!!!hihi.. bout 9.30am.. kite bertolak after ma pakteh n makteh.. came…huhu.. as usual lah i’m the driverrr~~ adeyyy.. yelahhh dulu kecik2 dieorang jadi driver bawak kite, rite now bile dah beso…its ma turn plak.:P…
hurmm.. had bekfas kat highway Semban.:P.. n met ma oldskul Sc Muar, Pengetua.. Mr Suratman.. hihi.. xsangka arghh leh jumpe die.. hihi.. after 5years tuhh… hihi, die dah bersara dah rupenye!! okkkk…. adiosss mr.suratmennnn..:P
hurmm… wat to sttowiee.. huh??yah!!~~sampai keyel kat college bout 11.30a.m,then amik ma jubah n all the konvo stuffs..!jumpe tasha.. tp sbb nak rush.. xsempat nak sembang lame ngan die.. xpe.. tomowooo kite jumpe agi!!…ma dad cal die dah check in kan hotel tuk kiter owang…kat melia bkt bintang, i know that hotel.. after finished benda2 tuh.. so i drive g Melia.. sampai2 n trus check in.. huhuhu.. not bad thiz hotel,dad dah sponsor 2 duluxe room tuk kiteowang.. n luckily, every room ade pc!!huhu… trus online.. n ceting wif ma belovinggg huneyy Hide..while tgh mesian Idols.. hihi..:P,Hide soh downloal skype.. but xbley plakk.. … huhuhu… after Zuhur.. kiterowang kuar… jenjalan…then, in the evening.. g umah ma abg Yusri kat Bandar Tun Razak.. hurmmm lame xgi umah die,, sib baik ingat gak jalan… hhihi.. kat sane.. met kat Rini n ma 2 comey2 anak buah Tahirah & Tahqif, hurrmm Tahirah.. nak kuwusss…!!hurrmm swimmingg die upenyer… hiks…Takqif stil comey agi… lepak there till dinner.. hurmm… then ma akak lagi satu came wif her husben..huhu.. n all ma anak buah, Haris, Ziyat n Daniel.. hihii..:P, after borak2… n crita2.. kiter owang pon balik hotel… hurmmmm.. sampai hotel, kiter try jubah.. n de ting yg pening sgt pakai tuh!tensi betui.. dunno how to wear that thingg.. hurmmm.. last!!i’m gv up! then.. iron jer sume stuff tuh… @@ekceli mum yg iron.. coz i bz… talked wif Hide..hihi… bfore that ma fwen.. Sharul call n wish me congrates for tomolooo!! hurmmm then, ma hide.. call.. n borak2 ngan die.. till dunno… hurmmm… n he said he had fall in luv wif ayue…issit? xmo sekejap pon die xappreaciate kiter..alaahaaiii swwweeetttnye words die… hopefully he meant it..wif his hart, same mcm die ckp…”die ckp dr hati…”!even he’s a romie.. butt.. kiter tau, hati die…!!:) ckp ngan die till end of his minutes..then, kite dah start baring.. n finishing iron baju kite..then online for while.. !!gotta cal from famie.. n he wish me gd luck too…mekaceh… then.. kite pon titun… ..ZZzzz.. hurmmm xsabar tunggu esok!!!
ayuee teame at 7:43 AM
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