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Saturday, September 11, 2004
I wanted you to know
I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
You’ve gone away, you don’t feel me, anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like
I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away………….. Broken….
wat to do???…??today work! work… n work!! saturday wud be the bz day!! lotsa work!!tensi.. n etc2… yeh!! arini amik spec bauuu… abis rm350..:( hikss.. !!then.. mase nak blk kijer kite g bli tudung konvo tuh!! aduhh puas carik yg berkenan kat ati, last ade guks…7.05pm: sampai umah… ujan arini.. sejuk ajer..:)… xuat ape pon, lepak2 kat umah sambil bace paper…mase time kijer, Hide asik miscal2 aku..but i cant reply it back!!nomore kredit left in ma pone…:( 8.32pm, Hide cal me up..time tuh aku tgh bc paper.. gayut ngan die bout 35minutes.. then,kiter dinner.. n tgk tv jap.. then online….ceting oso wif Hide.. !!tunite offline awal…11.45dh abis, then.. Hide call me up..again.. borak ngan die bout crocodiles,harimau…mount of kinabalus..etc2… dunno till when…the talked ended..maybe till both of us wuz not inde mood to talk-sleepy!_ nite then…Zzzz..
ayuee teame at 11:23 PM
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Friday, September 10, 2004
morning..: woke uP at 8 in da morning… work!!
10.oopm:i juz dunt understand….y ?? huh… juz wanna cry rite now?nape all thiz happened to me??y must me?..ape yg aku nak buat?? maybe aku mangsa keadaan?i have to know everythings… hurt…!!y must bcoz of her.. i have to forgt him- he didnt care ma hart n ma feeling when he said that words- or he wanted me to walk away???!!y must i feel sad??yah its start when i became so kay-poo-chee, asking him bout her, n the answers only wud made me hurt!!..?!!How does he feel??maybe for him.. thiz no big deal-but not me if he luvs me y must …arghhhh!!..where am i?where/?sitting on chair-duing nuting???yah.. i’m nuting.. i know..!!pethetic me..*-n my past..
22.53: dunno wat he’s duing… i juz keep thinking… n asking ma self.. till when? all thiz will over!!~ i juz want to luv him.. wif no wonders..wif no suspicion, n negetive thought…….n trust him!!want him till no end…but i cant!
hurmm…
**ma hart still crying.. n so damn hurt!!- lovers wud do anyting for their luvs .. even its hurt.. so do I
..n i’ll do the same… continuing ma hurt.. till i dunno, maybe.. till i gv up~~ or he want me to gv up!-
after all the words, the feels n oso “muahhhh”…that he already gave me… !! huh… both of us wr
hurt.. ma fault… ** i tried to chear up.. forget all the sadness… when i called him bout 12 sumting till
end of ma card, 1 hour 30minutes… but even i smiles.. n laugh.. but, deep in ma hart.. i owiz feel bit
hurt..n i dunno…wut todo…?? n keep asking maself why..bla..bla…?? n till when is gonna be
ended???…am i the precious…ones??in his hart liked he said before?? am i?… am i the only ones
that he luv?..does he thinks bout me..like i do?do he care bout me?like i do ?keeping a watchful
eye on him in everything he done?…y he let other person luvs him?n he becomes the supporter
too …courage that person,comfort her??neva let her hurt n feel down( hate to think bout thiz)…!!n
how bout me & i’m the only person that hv to face all that,the fact ????? maybe he’s rite..sumtimes, we
shud put our foot on other shoes.. feel it..!!!but…shud i duit??shud i put ma foot in??’m juz feel
lone now.. even i trust his luv.. but deep in ma hart..i dunno.. i dunno.. i juz in pain…~~i feel like i cant stand anymore!! can i still standing?..but, i blurrrrr… n i broken.. when i’m lonesome…
listening to : Mr. Children – Kurumi
ayuee teame at 9:05 PM
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Thursday, September 09, 2004
im nutinggg,,,,
ayuee teame at 11:08 PM
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
i juz sitting here…………
n ma hart wuz crying…!!n i cant resist itttt….tunite… end?
ayuee teame at 10:50 PM
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tuesday:
wake up inde muninggg…g kijerrr…huhu.. arini kijer penaTT, aku pon xrase not feeling well sgT..:( macam nak kene flu..:((~~ kijerr pon cam tak larat tp terpakse gukss… 
.. drive baliK pon cam tak larattt rase nak tetidooo ajerrr… mase drivingg…
blk2.. resT2 n titun.. jaP…!!then online…of coz wif ma hide…bfore sleep call die.. die pon nak titun awl.. coz penat, so tunite is my turn to call him.. but kejap jer..coz die ckp nak titun n asked me to wake him up biler aku terjaga coz die ckp nak uat h/w… 11.30camtuh kiter dah titun… Zzzz…mesti sbb mkn ubat batuk tuh..hihii
bout 4.45a.m kiter terjaga,… n truss cal Hide.. huhuhu.. sore die cam blom titun, betui pon die ckp die xley titun n br 2 hours titun dgr bunyi taufan…n had a bad dream.. bunuh2 agi.. huh…ngeriiii~~sembang2 die till 5.30am …
ayuee teame at 1:02 AM
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Monday, September 06, 2004
MORNING…
7.24am:Hide uaT wakE uP caL…die bgn awL arini… kiter continue titun n wake up bout 9.3oam..
mum dah kujutt.. adyusshhh malassssnyer rase nak banGUn..!!theN truS onliNee….Mandii n
WanGI2.. teNgoK..Hide adeerr.. die Dah bGN…n aVe ceT wiF hIM… saMbiL siaP2 kiTer meSSage
diee….
11.05aM : berToLAk gi KL… sinGGAh jaP kaT kedaII beLI brG thEN.. 11.30am bertolak.. sampaii
keyeL boutt 12.40pm tRUS gi DewaN wawasan PGRM tuK beresskan benDA2 tuk KOnvo…
rm47.00 tuk phoTo.. 
hurMM 1sT persOn yG juMpe yeLAh sara.. huhuhu Sara …taPi die
xsemPat raPTai coz die skunG verY bz womaN…HHUuhh daHH kiJER marketING adVisor kat AIA
tuh.. gaJI pon basic RM2100 ..de car, n rite now.. dah de bF!!huhuh…maCAm2… seconD persoN
jumpE yelahh my belovedd babyy boo ShasHA.. n oso.. Y… sHasha…koRek raHsie die jUmpe her
tuin-tuin..yesterdaYY.. n Y plAk cam namPak lebeyy hansomee..hIKS…sHasha caMe wiF
Y..togetherr2.. tHEn…kiTER juMPee.. tasHAA..plaKK… huRm.. mcm2 crita laa.. kiTERowang
sembanGGG… huGG theM uL..n mUahss oso…!!tHEn,, JumPe DiaNaa.. Yathie..mosTly member2
kiTER suMe dah Kijer…n Met EijA oso… TheN, maSE uAt perarakkaN masUK tuh.. terperaSan
AdY,LiaNA…IDA..Azi…YAn.. & Mai ( hihji..she oready got bf skunG!!~~) HISK..tHen, juMpe.. ShaIZA,
sHAkiR n Sukrii oso….huRmm cuMe Zam jeR tader^^..huRm Shai,ZAm n SukRI.. daH naK fly
Coventry dah tHiz 18 SepT….wisH them aLL thE besssttt…!!raPtai tuhh weNT smoothy
aaarrr…4.30 br abiSS…tHen… kiTEr kuAR laa..!!huhuhu.. wat a baD daYY!!CAnerr ntah.. TEtiber
maSe nak kuaR parkING, aku leh Langgar teMbokk!!habISSS…kete aku (…bout 7.40pm:sampai
umah…bout 8.15pm: Hide caLL time tuH..materr kiTER ngaNtuk sGT2…boRAk nGAn diE tiLL
nearLy 9oclock!!….tHen, kuL 10.oopm,trY tgK tb.. tP ciTER xbeSHHHH, ciTER haNTU.. taKUT palK
nak laYan sowaNG2…so..kiTER conTinUee oNlinE…dowNloaded LaGU2 ompUtiH baru…hIkss…
vindicated***..bfore titun… hIde cal..12.24am.. till 1.40am.. till end of hiS card!..n that nite.., sad story
had been appeared within the talked..!!touchyy…huh..dunt let the day goes by…n dunt wanna
think boutt iT..coz the mosT important things..is luV** between uS!n promised not to talk bouT iT
again ..let it be my eppy endINg…:X
listening to : Seether & Amy Lee – Broken
ayuee teame at 10:38 PM
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Sunday, September 05, 2004
luvly….Sundaaayyyyyy……
woke up at 9.00am… uhuhuh..had to wakee upppp!!!…huhuh….mum dah bisInG2.. adeYY cakiTT tIngerr… tudaYY kiTe naK sopING2.. huRRmmm…. 11.30a.m caM tuhh beRtolaK g KeyeL..nak gI miD VaLLeyy.. bLi stuFFs n ul thinGS.. bebaRU tuKK ma KonVO ti.. hihi..!!!huhu.. round n round from north to south Midvalleyyy.. perGhh ramai Gilosss owanG nak ParkinG satU haL hurMM daH sampAi Zon F…hiKS… meManG saKIT kalO nak ParkiNG siTUh, tapii xoZ lebeY muwaaahhhh n senanG kaT paRKING so, i preFer n rather.. to sopIng2 theree……aBis sopIng truSS balIK jer… dlm kuL 6.00pm dah samapai umaaahhh…..ondeway hoMe tuh… Hide miscaL2 kiTEr.. i thought….kite daH diluPerkann!:(……. eVerYYY kilOmeterss between.. froM peJayy to ma hOme.. i’been thinkiNG boUT him..dunnoo y… hIKss.. sampai2 jeR kiTEr cal dier bout 1 minute n 30 seconds.. hIKSS.. taDE duwiittt naK caL laMEE.. …tHen.. DiE cKP die NaK chaRge caRD…yeh!!… huRRmm… kiTER.. caL ma lil bro Azrii.. huRmmm lamerr giloSS xtipun diee… so igv him a call..hIKS wish hIM ud Luckk tuk finAL.. huhu rs die bit nervousss tuk 1sem finaL ni, so… aku sebaGai his lil sis yG dah ber-xtra-xperienceed.. bg tiPS tuk die… :X..hIKS… tHEN…boUT 7.00PM.. hIde CAL.. tiLL 7.40 koZ nak magriBS.. boraKS ngan Die boUT 2nd choices..physically..handsome..n huduhh.. n etc2…:P- tapi satu soklan die xjawaB lagi.. ape die buaTT hari niii?he didnt anwer iT:(!!…..wut tudu afterr gayut???gI “douce”…wanGii2 n tuNai’n kewajipAnnn…:).. n onLinee.. hurMMMM…tringat taDi bace megaZine bouttt….routines boyfren liess!! huh!!= trust? or neva/?..wen men said “I forgott…” n they said ” i dunt lie to u sweat hart”…etc2..!!bile fikirr kkdNg issue2 niee leh cayer gukss.. then, i read bouT secret of a guyy!!….to be contiuned…
9.30 till 10.30pm: tengoK smallVille…hihii… clarkkk..!!
10.30pm: continued onlineee…. duingg the y.m stuffs!!demn itt!!caner aku tuKo aku nyER nick
erid_00 ni jd Ayue!!:((..
1.00am.. stop online!!bengang skiT ngaN hiDE…
1.12a.m: hide cal…till 2.45a.m……hurmm till end of hiS card!!..:(..quite lamer guKs..total time card
die..2hours ++, kalo kiter bli i-talk 1 hour n 59minutes for thirty bug!-remembered wat he said lasT
niTE…owiz..
niter… muaHSS.. :-*
“indah..terasa indah…bila kita terbuai dlm alunan cinta, sedapat mungkin terciptakan rasa,
keinginan saling memiliki……tetaplah menjadi bintang dilangit…agar cinta kitakan abadi..biarlah sinarmu tetapmenyinari alam ni…agar menjadi saksi cinta kita berdua… “-kasih tak Sampai
ayuee teame at 8:41 PM
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