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Saturday, August 21, 2004
Hours fly, flower die…
New days ..new ways..
pass by..love stays…
MoRnInG tO aYuE..aGaIn….
5.00a.m, kite dah terbangun.. but then, ma alarm xbunyik lgi.. then, tetitun.. n tbgn 5.30am biler alarm from hs tuh bunyikkk…!!wake him up!!…take care aittt…!!huh..rs de weird feeling.. feel lk die makin jauh.. dunno y!but ave fun thre!!:).. continue titun.. till 8.00am, mum wake me up!! huh!! luper kije arini!!huh!..penatnyer…malas jer.. but hd to..biler dah kije nie rs makin byk responsibilties..n sincerity pon kene ade !..yah!!. to day.. kije cam bese..!huks.. arini auntie soh bwk anak yg gurl tuh g bli kasut plak hiks…mcm2.. then, aku kene g umah auntie kat Taman Baiduri ngan Ah Ping tuk amik CPU agi!! hihi.. xpe.. at least dpt duit minyak gaks!..hihii..! arini lunch mum kat Bakery Cottage jer.. xde mood nak mum nasik!..bout 1.00 lebey, Hide mscall.. maybe die dah sampai… 2times..:) hopefully he’s gonna b otey!!…..i jz msg him back!.ave fun thre!.. arini xramai cust, so kije pun xbyk..senyap je..
balik kije…..bfore that, cam teringin nak mum nuttela..so g bli…:X rm6.90..!!blk2 online n blogie.. huh.. ingat Hide.. 1st time tengok die xde..:( ..sedey lak ghase..:(… then, tengok tV cite Table For Two.. comeyy citer tuh!! luV story..real LOve..!!!….8.00pm, hide mzcal..2times.. mesti die dah “mandi-mandi” kat air panas tuh! hiskkk… 
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to be continued…
tengah2 ngumpat dgn Sha2 psl Hide.. Die call aku.. xlama.. bout 4minits jer:(..maybe cal hs, so rate die tinggi… mlm tuh, kite msk nasi goweng..heheh…:) ma mum xbrape sihat..:(..!!!..tonite dunt ave much todo…jz miss him jer!!cal die tp xdapt..:(..nape eh?..u jz far-far away…wat eva u d done i dunno… but pliz dunt change… nomore negetive thought… !!trust him..!!:X…then, bile cal dpt plak.. tp xclear, die ckp bar kat Hs die 1 jer..sumtimes ade.. sumtimes xde.. tanye die de cal sesape tak b4 thz!! he said xde..ntahlah..bile putus then he called me back.. from 11.36pm till 11.59pm je…kejap aje:( maybe rate tinggi…die citer bout air pns kat situh!die mkn…his words buat aku jd tenang….calm..!!!hati aku cepat lembut…(hopefully tuk kite je!!:X)….last wish from him…”Miss U”..syg sy?” – & i replied…”TooooKKKKK!!!”:P//hheheh….!!
Sudenly, i got message from sum1 yg mmg xdikenali no… then, baru tau no. baru Azam! huks.. dah ade hs baru ghupenye die!!….Occhh!!Slym cal me up- whre u got ma num?!!.. u damn Slymbloyd…haks!!clumsy argh die.. unexpected betui…(bak kate sha2 org tinggi bit clumsy- maybe she’s rite!!)!!- peliks betui…n apsal skung orang asik ilang HS??… simcard pun leh ilang.. huks…..!!n aku sendiri baru planning nak bli HS baru.. tunggu gaji last!! haha..:P..
Wuargggggggwuarghhhhh now is 12.43am.. mate dah ngantuk gilosss..ntah bape kali nguap…bape kali terlelap dpn mr.blog nie…!!last2 tetido dpn monitor…bgn2 dah 1.30am…letihlah… n nak tdo….
remember tonite….remember thz lyrics.. ” two people tourching lips,hands n each other hips,nuting else in d world but 1another,,so put down ur hollow lips n kiss ur lovers….And learn that fate is what you make of it”….remind me to Brandon Slymboyd..-Agoraphobia!! ***********kat luar angin + ujan skit2 pada la mlm ni panas….argh besh tdo mlm nie…hopefully…lah…
hurmmm cet wif ma lil cutie bro “Azri… hiks….” nak sgt die nak tgk blog aku!! then.. i put ur name in ma blog bro!!.. dunt forget to tag sum msg k! hukss…!!! hurmmm wat else ?…
i want to sleep……..!!!! to the slumbernesssss,,,,,,,
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I’d be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart’s beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start I’ll tear us apart
Can I be your enemy
Losing half a year
Waiting for you here I’d be your anything
Tearing out my heart I’d be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings disappear
Can I be your memory ….(memory!!!….-Sugarcult)
ayuee teame at 7:42 PM
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Friday, August 20, 2004
mOrNiNG…….aYuEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!…!!!!……
Love Song (311)
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love youI will always love you
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away,
I will always love you
However long I stay,
I will always love you
Whatever words I say,
I will always love you
I will always love you….
morning… to ayue… 8th days of woks… force ma self get up from thiz bed… !! b4 g kije i must cal him!!…as ussual 9.00am, sampai tempat kijer.. kemas2 skit.. cam biase.. n uat kije skit2!!…today, 3.00pm,hantar anak auntie g tuisyen, hiks.. dapat lah duit minyak rm5, huks… besh2… kije kat sini sronok coz xde la duk je dlm opis.. byk mende yg aku stil blaja!!:P go slowieee….!!!…!!5.00pm plak amik anak aunit blk…!! … huh! xlame lagi aku maybe nak berpindah ke Can Technologies(M) Sdn. Bhd.. hukss.. sronok.. siap de card lagiks!! idayu abd. wadud, ass admin excutives.. hahah….!!:P.. bunyi cam ade gempaks skit.. huks..!! arini banje… hurm, rm4.70 tuk lunch, rm10 tuk isi minyak kete….6.30pm, blk umah… trus online… n c.. lepask2.. then cet wif Azam.. alahai… lame giler die xonline.. n susah betui die nak cal aku!.. cian die…!!tomollooo die nak blk SP..hiks.. Skang aku layan lagu 311- Love Songs.. member aku soh dgr!! perghh fall tengok lyrics die… …” how eva far away i’ll alwiz lurve u..howeva long I stay..i’ll awiz luv u..”..that nite, ma hart hd been touched by sum1…giler touching aaa…shocked!… Song-”I’m lOSt without U…”.. remind me to ma frenzter @ Gmi frenz.. Shahrul!.. HUks.. die bit maniac ngan musics.. songs, lyrics!! etc.. pergHH..n of coz wif Incubus..Slymboyd Brandon baby.. huks.. ingat pic kat ym aku!! giler cun aaahh!!…:X..ciloks dr die gaks..but wif his permission aite?! (soweii u)!!…..!!cet wif sha beb.. sronoks.. !!windu die..tat notty2 gurl!! ..sexy..hott!! flaminGG.. hehehe… n lastly bootylicious…chick!!huks.. together wif her style to seduce every guyz! huk kiding…!!!she’s a gud gal!!neva been anytin’… but got lotsa ILMU!!!!! huksd.. die cter bout Shukri.. how she hopes.. die will eppy till end wif him.. 
!!..Owh.. i owiz pray for u ..owiz pray dear , do u know…how much i luve u sha?(hikS- thz is not lesBO sentence k!!!)….. Ok… now i nak story bout Hide dearie plak….Hurmmm… nomore word “HYde..” starting from today.. it becomes… “HIDE”..!! tomoloww… die g jenjalan n ave fun!!…kat mane ntah wif his frenz n his lec ehhh?…gonna miss u dear… !!b4 sleep, i hope he’ll cal me but die xcal pun 
..so..i cal him up..jz wanna say TaKe Care for tomoloooo….. but.. not that only… hukss.. bout 45minutes kot.. hurmm.. told him wat i actually felt… die kate, die xbrubah.. he still “sayang -only me”..but i feel like..sumting wuz wrong since that damn day .. keep haunting me over n over…!!i’ll try to laugh for him… try to make maself eppy..!chear up the day…!!wat else can i do? sabar n tunggu & trust him- (trust sum1 that u luv most )…but the real feel is in mahart!!..noone knows.. the truth..thoz hurt,thoz tears..& thoz LURVE!!ave lil faith in me… my eppy ending..opss.. tomoloww.. ave to wake him up…5.30a.m… so beta sleep now.. gud nite ayue.. !!muahss… :-*……
ayuee teame at 7:17 PM
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
………………..the story of the murning glory!!…..;;) wakeup at 8.00am inde muninG go for WorKK, so much things d happened laSt nite~~…!!! before that,…
kite call HYDE..!!sj kaco die titun!!;;).. !!kaceh, sbb still cayang kiter!! :X…tp jap je cal coz direct cal!!:(…tade duitt… hikss.. but yesterday dpt duit gaji 16hari kije kat AFAMOSA… hehhe.. patut dpt rm399.++ tp, sbb tade notice so, kene tolaks!! tinggal lah rm230, pergh cedeyy betuiii… 1st gaji aku in ma whole life !!! hurmm.. cayang betui kat gaji tuh!!..:X…..arini kat opis kije cam bese… auntie xde pun marah aku kalo aku tersilap, ish2… aku lak rase bersalah, arini auntie banje KFC hehhe… beshhh 
…balik cam biaselah kul 6.00pm, hisk.. then, singgah jap kedai tipun, bli I-Talk,… balik2 trus rs nak cal sum1..(*), hurmm ntah laa…skung ni ade weird feeling in ma hart xmcm dulu!!- …..nape ntah aku xmcm dulu?y i bcome so closure..!!y rase len!!?rs trpakse nak lyn sume org!rs macam xpatut je…y bcome like thiz?asik nak sakit hati org, teringat hati2 org yg dah aku sakitkan!!pe cite die?…..citer pasal Hyde, die ckp die ngat kiter..bila masak…bile duk dpn pc.. bila2…!!mekasiH!!…yeke?.. mlm tuh online,..br nak tegur Hyde.. die suh tunggu..coz die tgh slisifaham + tension!!ngan Ila bout abortion.. anak angkat bla2…!!..rase mcm owng bodo plak aku!!- ntahlah… trasa pun tak berbaloi…!! – tringat lyrics “I’m Lost Without U”.. trust usha lagu die!!.. not bad lah guks!! Blink-blink… layan laGU tuh.. …., owh!! apply UITM online
10.30 tgk Dalam Hati Ada Cinta….
till 11.00, arghh cedih citer tuh… sian die kene berkorban cinta semata2 kakak die!!! man.. giler sedih a.. “Kasih Tak Sampai…”)..tape2.. hopefully de Happy Ending…!!kla… enuf sampai sini….
(* Hyde kat dapur, tengah siap2 stuff BBQ die tuk die pergi ti….i’m alone here!!….) gonna miss him…!!!
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to be continued.. tak touch up lagi!!!!… saje tuko size tulisan & font Trebuchet nie..wuar-wuar-wuar!!!
GUD NITE….. AYUEEEE…….!!!:x
then.. ngantukss.. letak pale atas tilam.. n mzcal Hyde… n he call me back!!- gayuts ngan die!- tp rase kejap je pun maybe near 1 hour kot dunno… tp die kate die br charge.. !!ntahlah!!!sedey… …!!sedey…die cite psal mum die…n die citer pasal die penah jatuh beskal n tangan die retak la mase die form4 on his bufday (27 nov)…tangan kiri die lg kuat dr tangan kanan la…n cerita2 sampingan kot… tp rs kejap jer arghh.. ape lagik ehh???…. lasty!!! he said.. “moi pour toi”… miss u…”
off handphone… n titun..!!!…………….
ayuee teame at 11:50 PM
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Wednesday, August 18, 2004
ayue tak tau nak crita ape?!!! ayu xde mood nak crita!!…ayue need rest!! ayue need sleep….!!! – ayu dah penat!!letih!!… MAAFKAN ayue…~~~
ayuee teame at 7:05 PM
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
The Perfect Mood for today issss….BENCI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
morninggg.. ayu…. wake up early inde muning… hardd!!too damn hard- wake up from my beloved darling baby…sape yg sanggup tinggalkan darling tuh:((!!yelahh.. but- becoz of nak cari “sesuap nasik” hiks… so, kene aa rerajin alaahh word tuh, macam owang tak berdaya miskin sgt plak (…. …
to be continued…..
hurm, today customer xramai sangat, but…still got works todo, ok aa tuh dari busan!!hurm, ade satu customer ni arabic nak cari mini pocket cd-rw, habis satu tampin xde die ckp, but Alhamdullilah kat Chai ni ade! hiks.. punyer la gumbira that arab…hiks.. ..arini lunch mam roti jer, nak diet la… hikss~ time rest tuh, met ma old2 frenz Nani.. Nani tuh baik sangat n bersopan santun, cantik…lembut jer…~ dielah skoolmate aku mase form1-3 yg baik ngan aku, study same2…hisk..ingat Nani naik beskal!!!!mak die pun baik ngan aku… hiks..!!lame xjumpe mak die, besh jumpe mak die ade je benda die puji aku!hisk…. Then, met senior aku,kak Ina – ngan husband die.. terperanjat gaks.. tengok pewut die “Besoo..” pregnant dah 8month.. eiii.. die baru je 23! eii takut!!ish…tengok..pegang pewut die, caner la rase ti.. eh..rase mcm xmo kawin!! eii… gerun je!! tp, bila dah mcm tuh, kite kan feel naluri sowang “Ibu”…n baby..!!comey ~~!! citeer pasal opis, auntie xbrape sihat, but die still kene kije!! camtuh la sabarnyer die…bukan senang nak kayerrr!! betui kate auntie..!!business bukan senang, but kite mesti sabar + pandai!!… !!! Hari ni spend… hurm rm5.20 tuk lunch!!30inggit tuk card!!balance dlm purse ade…rm50.++sen arghh… …
8.13pm, lapornyer rase…. !!tapi nasi tak masak lagi… (, rase tak semangat jer…. …
“as it is promised
by the wind,
as it is tendered
in the heart,
as it is written
across the sky . . ….”the means of LOVE.
Dengar lagu Jikustik “Apalagi yang kulakukan….” : (bila kata-kata tak lagi menjadi bermakna.. apa lagi yang kulakukan… bila syair dan nada… tak jua lumpuhkan hatimu.. apalagi yang kulakukan… seluruh jiwa ragaku serahkan hanya kepadamu…semangat hidupku, apa saja pastikan ku lakukan hanyalah untukmu harapan hidupku… *bila semua daya telah ku kerahkan tuk HATIMU…mu, apalagi yang ku lakukan….bila syair dan nada tak jua lumpuhkan hatimu…~~*)..LALALA…..!!
sumtimes… kite rase nak diri eppy, but then, sad comes…!! banyak benda kite blaja dlm hidup nie..tak sume orang tuh same, tak sume leh buat ape yg kite nak die buat!!..maybe kite nak die eppy bile die tau kite ada, but.. sumtimes…tuh tak jadi, hakikat nilah yang kene kite terima.. walau mcm mane pun indahnye sesuatu tuh bermula…pasti ade buruknya akan datang!!aku bit trasa ngan apa yang terjadi hari ni, tapi aku tau.. pasti ade yg indahnya akan datang!!dan aku cube berjanji pada diri aku supaya lebih lebih…!!- aku xmo kacau die tdo lagi!!i dunt want to hear die marah “jangan kaco sy tdo!!”…!!maybe tindakan luar kawal tuh leh hurt kan org…n u hurt!!sori..!maybe aku dah over the limit!!!!….SALAH KAHH AKU??…. OKLAH, nak isi borang MMU.. ESOK NAK KEne posT!!..SO beta Doit Now!!…:P…
TO OR NOT TO BE.. is to BE….continued…
TAK jadi ISi boraNG… COZ BYK Sgt PARTICULARs yg die Nak….
NAPE MANUSIA SENANG BERUBAH?????……
BENCI! BENCI!BENCI!BENCI!!!!….
ADE LAGI PERFECT WORD DR BENCI!!!….
y must i got stuck in thiz!!!……DAMN!!
i know everything bout u, u told me …when u snored, when u ate, when u slept…when u miss n luv sum1…the person who’S luv u!ZILA & AIDA etc2….i can read u…i can feel wat u feel.. even its too hard for me to accept thoz feels… its so damn hurt!!…can i stop thiz feeling?can i?as what u want me todo!!??stop luving u?…am I? aku bukan SENANG BERUBAH…..!!only thoz tears yg bagi aku guts tuk trus…:)…!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BOSANNNNNNN!!!!!!!BOSANNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!
ayuee teame at 6:29 PM
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Monday, August 16, 2004
murninggg… ayuu….
wake upp.. tuk kijee!!8.00am.. arghhh so damn malasss… tapi disebabkan comitment kat kije tuh lebih coz nak dpt duit, so i got to push ma self get up from thiz bed!!!:(( arghh ku tak relaa…. (….beshnyer titun…. bangun2 dah mandi..then siap2… bfore bekfas, tipun ma lil “hyde”..!!! before gi kije tuk dapt semangat skit – get the spirit from the one that u really luv!!huks..:P…..
hurmm… 12minutes dah sampai tempat kije 9.00am, arini auntie cepat skit coz aku sesampai die dah de!!..n as usual kemas2 skit..hurmm.. today, sales xbrape.. rm207 total kat sales listing je !!betui ckp auntie.. business skang really2 down!!!tengah2 kije Azam call- huh!! tapi xsempat nak layan die, yelah aku tengah kije.. sian die tiap kali die call, aku tak dapat nak layan.. last nite aku tdo…arini kije plak, nak call die pun xtau caner!!sowei frenz!!… and then, ade owng salah num ngan aku!! sakit hatinyeer.. then tak reti bahasa plak tuh… asikla nak call..aku xlayan trus cancel call tuh! bengang giler aahh..lately ni, everyday ade je owg salah num ,tak pun ade je num2 tak dikenali appeared, misscall kat hs aku!!tensi betui!!!……n today aku mmg careless skit, i had made 2 mistakes..huks.. 1st, salah tulis invoice num, 2nd wrong serial num..!!camner tah!bley careless….mane aku letak mata aku ntah.. but luckily, auntie tak marah pun! – but if die mrh pun i had to deserve aa.. coz its absolutely ma fault!!..:P…!!hurm.. drive home, before that isi minyak kreta rm10, then terserempak fami pun baru abis kije, die melintas betui2 kat depan kete aku!!hisk…!!
6.30pm sampai umah! cal hyde ..aku rase nak sangat ckp ngan die!!…miss him to the max!! that nite, aku dinner ikan keli masak lemak, sayur n sambal ikan bilis.. gile pedas aaa mum masak!! but cedappp…:P.!!….hurm, hyde asyik ngan tv die jer..sedih gaks!!xmo layan aku la tuh!!hate itt!!..bout 10pm aku tengok tv.. but then tv yg tengok aku.. hiks:P…11.50pm br terjaga n trus masuk tdo…bfore that i gv msg tuh Hyde.. then he called me up! wish me gud nite as ussual lah!!:P..n die stay agi tengok tv tuh!!cant u feel wat i feel?man…. benci!! tdo asik terjaga2…y huh?…okla nite2 to ma self.. tata..:P
ayuee teame at 8:04 PM
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Sunday, August 15, 2004
yeh2.. Sunday!! Sunday!!!
yeh2…. arini cuti dayyy.. no need to kije…, but i’m still wake up early coz mum dah bising2!! yah! nottt that “early”..la.. bout 8.30 am! hakss,,, then, ave breakfasstt!! hehhe.. !!kenyang pewuttt laaa..tembikai dahhh.. hiksss.. then, rest jap n.. kemas2 umah.. cleap up all the the messy things kat bedroom aku nie!! hurrmm.. dah 1 week aku tak lap2 .. so dusk all over dah!!-geezzz… xbleyyy tahan.. then, kemas2 all the things kat dlm bilik nie, n sapu2 skit.. since aku kije, bedroom aku nie dah jadi hape ntah!!!sume cutie2 things dah tunggang-tebaliks!!srabutss aku… !! then, aku kemas umah plaks.. clean living hall tuh, dining…vacum all the habuk2!!and mop!!huarghh….penat !!!then, 11.30am.. tengok Malaysian Idols! … i’d voted for Jac n Dina!!abis rm1 kredit aku!! 50 cent per sms…but apepun i voted only for the best!!- perghhh Jac nyer voice wuz perfecctttt…judges pun gave high compliment kat die… Dina pun w/pun comeyy n temblemm.. but her voice wuz absolutely outstandingg maa…!!-gilerrr pok aaahh hiksss… then, after tengok Mesian Idols.. kene masak plakkss… sambal udang wif carots, sayur n goweng telur.. hukss… w/pun sambal tuh xla besh as mum cook tp.. bley aa nak idup!!hihi.. tak tau nak uat besh like mum.. hhihi… (Sambal – teringat kat Hyde):P…………
hurmmm……that eveningg… juz ave voice chat2 wif Hyde!!:P….. nak bouquet of roses from him?? for ma convo! 13Sept!!hiks.. kidingg… i know he’s too far… !!- nite??..hurmmm? wat d happened huh? hurmmm.. downloading..downloading… sambil2 ceting2, Hyde bz wif Tv..muvi!!hate itt!!tinggal i sowang.. hiks.. but, then ave cet wif ma lil sha2 , she’s got probs , trasa ngan her lil huney bee.. , yah..cian die!hurmm… nape sum person cannot deserve the way other person look?issit physically attraction such beauty, handsome, j.lozzz, or machoz is the most important things to look at?..or his or her hart??man.. hopefully ade org will accept the way i am… !! judge my hart, emotion & not at etc2 sampingan tuh!!-cet wif ma lil bro “Azri”..!!cutie, bubly bro…hukss.. lazyy bamm uat assg die tuh!! so… as his lil macho sistahh, aku pun bebel la…n include sum of the tip-tip dalam study nie!!actually the real “idayu” ni pun.. sangat malasss…!!all the kije wuz totally last minutes.. but, still “perfect”… normallah.. nak idup rite??so.. we got to use medula oblagatta, paramblix cortex…bla2… yg de kat brain tuh!hahah…ape yg aku dah merepek nie?!!-
nearly 1.00am, gotta sleep, tomollooo nak kijerr wohhh!!!Hyde pun… soh kite titunnn.. before that die cal n wish gud niteee…:)!!hopefully i can sleep….ZZzz…. lay to slumberness….
ayuee teame at 5:24 PM
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