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Tuesday, August 31, 2004
eppy dayyyy….
We were written in the stars, my love, all that separated us, was time,
the time it took to read the map which was placed within our hearts,
to find our way back to one another…..
EPPy MerDeKa MurrrrrnInGGG………. :X…..
thinkinG bouT laSt niTe..hihi.. wat a wonderful morning view!! 
.let maself continuing eppy to the fullest!..hurrmm eventhough, mum had waken me up!! -called Hide dearie..huney.. wishing him gud morningg!!n force him to wake up!! hiskk…!!-padan mukee!! hiskk…earlY hving bekfass “nasi lemak”.. make me feel fatt! 
..ouchh!!……………..:(, today cuti n dunt ave to work!!- hurmm facing- all the computers,customer,problemoo…etc!! or going thre.. or there.. nomore pressures for a moment for @ 1 day only!! tomoloo..arghh ave to wurk!!hopefully dapat gaji.. hihi..:P …!! today, lotsa thing particulrly ave to be done- even rs cam malas:P!! hurmm, ma uncle n aunt from Mallaca came.. for “masak-masak” time!! wuuuuuuuuuuu…. yehh!!.. cuti- for masak day!! bile ma “mak usu…”n all the sekutu2 tuh ade… mesti nak uat masakan!…n tiz merdeka holiday! we’ll cook.. rendang n lemanG.. aiooooo… thoz two masakan too much caloriess insideee .. argghhh… !!..:((.. gumukss….!!!!
hukss.. boraks ngan Ma auntie, hiks!!suprisely die dulu pun pandai ceting2 ..hiks!! huks…-xsangka pandai tuh!..hiks even umur dah 40ty++ hiks!!n she got lotsa exprienced! hurmm 1thing yg besH ngan antie Senah, shez very openminded!!~~n creative tu!!hikskk…n we all boraks bout poligami, man..etc!!****!!n so..on…!!!
hurmm….. nite!!wut to do ait?nuting.. juz surfinG n… dreamInng.. updating ma BlOG , …:)..
owhh mamamaaaa….my!!pimples is coming out!!!huh/…stress out!!!!!!.. tidakkkk!!!!!!!
*wondering…wat he’s duing rite now?????….(21.31)
“Doubt thou the stars are fire, doubt that the sun doth move, doubt truth to be a liar but never doubt that I love…..”-W. Shakesphere
***the answer for the question (above)…he’s duing he’s wurk!! huhuhu.. for tomolooo presentationnn huhuhu……:)!! padan muke!!! ~~swiittt jer bile die viewingg webie die tgh uat kijer tuh!!(kunun-kunun)~~ lotsa work huh??…!!!make sure u du it well!!~~
my precious :X, my precious :X,my precious :X…..my precious :X….my precious:X…………………mosTT preciouss:X………..:P
Slymboyd.. cal me up!! we talked boutt his merdeka celebration last nite!!- fireworkss+bout alvril+music+bout his life n ma opinion…!!n bout “ma luv” story!!:X
hueemm…. that nitee.. kiter der missunderstood ngan Hide.. soweiii kiter uat die terasa for the second time!!& its ma fault!! 
( didnt mean to hurt my precious ones…!!- untuk aku die paling utama!!no one else…!! coz ur ma most precious in every single ding-ling..things!!hihi….n i dunt want to make u hurt!! ..i rather hurt…than look u hurt!
GOODDD NITee…… ZZzzzzzz!!!!
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Monday, August 30, 2004
Hurmm… haloooooooooooo………
La!la!LLa….. morningggg ayue,,, hikss… beauty,bubbly ayuee,,, :X….. husks… hurmmm…… wat to do ehh? yah!! wake up n go for wurk!! hikss mondayy mood.. “bitt bosan!!!”… hikss , i hate munday!!!…:P…..!!munday bz.. ramai giloz owangg, maybe coz tumooloo cutii “merdeka”…!!!!….:P.. lunch time, Slym call me up.. hurmm…borakss ngan die japs- n gimme lagu2 baru!!!!..n he asked bout Hide n me..??hurmm oK kott,, even i bit trasa ngan Hide bout lasT nite!!…hurmm, 6.10pm, balik kijer.. hiikskkksss…adeyy penatss.. sGT2…jalan pon jammed to the maxxx ngan kete n owang!! tensi betui.. hurmm!!…
balik2.. lepaks2 n mandi.. hurmm, then… nyanyi2… hikss…surfingg… downloadinG & layan lagu The Rasmus _ In_The_Shadow (lagu yang paling semangat + make me eppy bile dengar time tgh driving…), n GooGoDoLL- Slide ..:P.. n search lyric Peter Pan (CLICKK)..nyanyi2…chantezz…. sampai sakit tekak!! adeyyyy…
BinTanG_Di SurgA_
Masih ku merasa angkuh *Terbang kenanganku jauh *Langit kan menangkapku *Walau kan terjatuh* Dan bila semua tercipta* Hanya untukku merasakan *Semua yang tercipta* Hampa hidup terasa *Lelah tatapku mencari* Arti untukku membagi *Menemani langkahku *Namun tak berarti* Dan bila semua tercipta *Tanpa harus ku merasakan* Cinta yang tersisa* Hampa hidup terasa *Reff: Bagai bintang di surga* Dan seluruh warna *Dan kasih yang setia *Dan cahaya nyata Oh bintang di surga* Berikan cerita *Dan kasih yang setia *Dan cahaya nyata…..
hurmm MunGkIn_ NanTi….
Saatnya ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya *-Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya *-Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi *-Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi*- Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi *-Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali *-Rasa yang kutinggal mati *-Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini *-Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi2mu *-Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku *-Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi*- Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi *-Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi *-Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali *-Rasa yang kutinggal mati *-Seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini *Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri *-Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri…..
Di belakanngku
Kau peluk aku sebelum membunuhku* Tersenyum melihatku merenung melihatmu *Kau menungguku menunggu ku terjatuh *Setiap langkah tertuju setia dalam menunggu *Aku menunggumu menunggumu menunggumu mati *Didepanku didepanku didepanku o..o..o *Kau peluk aku sebelum membunuhku* Tersenyum melihatku merenung melihatmu* Aku menunggumu menunggumu menunggumu mati *Didepanku didepanku didepanku o..o..o *Apa yang kau lakukan dibelakangku *Mengapa tak kau tunjukkan dihadapanku* Apa yang kau lakukan dibelakangku dibelakangku dibelakangku dibelakangku…. *Dibelakangku *Aku menunggumu menunggumu menunggumu mati *Didepanku didepanku didepanku a…a…a
hiksksk.. hurmmm..that nite, borak ngan Hide…hurmm..then..Azam cal, at last hikss..boraks2 ngan die boutt merdeka 47 years dah!!, bout bisness, marketing strategies..virus,pc’s.. bout etc2.. hikss maybe lamer xdapat ckp ngan die yelah…coz tiap kali die cal pon aku asik bz…esok nak blk Gmi dah ..soweie.. tata..~~
that fine nite, kiter gayutingg wif Hide dearie again .. hiKS.. kejap die cal.. kejap aku cal.. hiKS….hurmm butt.. so much ting had happened.. hurmm die tanya how we’ll gonna feel 1day before.. we meet each other…that day..!! hurmmm.. remind us..hurmm next yer..6month more to go..counting on day by day…hopefully everyting will be fine…till that day!….hihhiihii ..
then, ma mak usu coming bacK from KeyeL!..:P..so we hd 2 stop our conversation, cet-cett bouuutt.. man’s pewutt buncitt!!huksks!!!~~hihihi..:P.. cal him back~~stop to shut down pc~~till kiter titun, he promised to cal me back!! hurm i juz felt asleep then.. !!my “mak usu” kujut mKn cekudukss.. wif hot necafee…yummyyyy…husks!!tekujutt n bitt blurry..dah la..posisi hihiihi~~sexyy~~
phoneee timeeee
hurmmm.. 2.30a.m continuing gayuting lagi wif himm… dunno wat we both ckp!!butt… he’s so damn manja wif me!!~~hihi bese la…..hukk wif his.. “hihihihi”..laughing style..!!argghhh!!hurmm yahoo msg sindrom..gigling!!huhu…..the rythm of hiss laughing tuh make me “nyampahh!!!”.. he owizz du itt!!hate itt… beb… hurrmmm.. arghhghhh ngantuksss…. need to sleeppp hun.. n i luvv u…:X
MERDEKA!!~~MERDEKA!!~~MERDEKA!!….~~
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Sunday, August 29, 2004
pewwittttt……….. tuing-tuing-tuingg……MoRnInGG…
beauTYYY..princessss….(hahaha prasan!!!)
sundayy morninggg….!!!!!.. tudayy cuti! no need to go for worKKK!!..hihi.. !!! beSHh.. tuday wake up bit late! but not that late lah….hihi… maybe mum dah kejut kul 9.00am but i still continued ma sleep hiks… ngantukss lah till 10am br wake up:P!! lasT nite ttido dgn sendirinyer maybe coz i’d been to tired of workss n some pressures that hit me off!!, … n bgn2 jer, mak kejut coz sume xshut off!!.. inde murnig after subuh, i call Hide, asking him, nape tak wake me up!! hurmm…. but die ckp, he didnt want to distract ma sleep:)… hurrmmm!!kinda geram gaks ngan jwpn die!! coz thez no mzcal from him n nite2 message osso …n tensi… but, it jz small matters.. no biG2 deals!.. forget it… i’m emo …..hurmm riten we become more sensitize bile kite too closed ngn sesorang tuh! yah…. fact tuh wuz absolutely rite!!..hurmmm hikss.. didnt mean tobe so overdramatic of it!..hikss i jz fine gurl…:)
huhuhu…
hurmmm tudayyy.. ….. hurm.. ramainyer owang kawen,ma fren msg pon from last nite sume bagi tau de gi kawin arini… so i got to teman “mum” n wif kak eda’s family g umah owang kawen, meet my sedara thre, yang baru kawen last year.. hihii.. dah dpt baby dah die.. cute giloss aargghh!! comey :X….. HIKS…!! semalam my neighbour kawen, then, td i nampak xbf my cousin-Ila, si Helmi.. hurmmm.. xsempat nak tegur!! arghhh.. sakit hati jer rase, coz he’d hurt ma cousin feeling!!! damn u!….shiTT@@
from umah owang kawen, cepat2 jer rase nak balik wif kak eda n Dikla…coz nak tgk mesian’s idol tuh pun dunt ave enuff time, hurm.. byk performance dah terlepas.. sampai2 pun dah 12.40pm.. lagi 20minutes left jer.. hihi.. tp xpelah..!! at last tau guks who will win!!…
hurmmm abis tuh, dapat call from my uncle, kate ma uncle sedara dah pass away… Innalillah.. hurmm.. (Al- Fatihah) maybe Allah lebih menyayangi nyer dr die continue suffering…sakit.. hurmm…:(, aku tak gi pon tengok koz kene jaga umah, coz ade org uat kije, so i juz staying at home.. ceting wif ma Hide ///…wat else yg leh aku uat?.. arghh kinda bosan! tp.. xpelah… nyanyi2.. n dgr Hide nyanyi.. made me feel orait… hurm.. heheh.. Hide= off tune! hiks.. noh!..actually comeyy jer ~~~ ehem-ehem..:).. suke dgr die.. nyanyi.. semangat betui! ….hurmm wat eva pun he owiz makes me feels impressed..hisk sweettt talkerrr.. romeooooow..:P
hurmmm die nyanyi lagu Peterpan_ Mungkin Nanti..:X…:-”….
arggghh tired laa plaks!!…need ressTT now… ..
listening to “incubus.. aqueous transmission..”)
(I’m floating down a river*Oars freed from their holes long ago*Lying face up on the floor of my vessel*I marvel at the stars*And feel my heart overflow*Further down the river*Further down the river*Further down the river*Further down the river*Two weeks without my lover*I’m in this boat alone*Floating down a river named emotion*Will I make it back to shore*Or drift into the unknown*Further down the river*Further down the river*Further down the river*Further down the river*I’m building an antenna*Transmissions will be sent when I am through*Maybe we could meet again further down the river*And share what we both discovered…Then revel in the view….
hurmmm poetry : Believe Me….**~~
We may sometimes argue but believe me I love you* We my get hurt to the small or big things..but believe me I Love YoU….We may not see eye to eye but belive me I love you* Our love for one another is what holds us together *This love is so strong I can see we were meant for each other*I love you and you love me and nothing can tear us apart*So when things get rough and you dont know what to think..* Believe me I LOVE YOU…****!!!…
*****now timer: 20.09*****?? hurmm kat luar ma uncle ader wif ma auntie dieorg from mallaca!! hurmm…!!hurmmm per ehh dieorg boraks?? hiksss… hurmmm ?!!+++staying inside agi baguss!! ghase malas nak kuaR!! gi pon topic dieorg xbeshh!! …crita owang2 tua2 hiihi.. ekceli not so tua lah!!..hurmm jap jer pon dieorg dtg.. hurmm dah pon blk hiks …!!!….arghhh dok surf pic cun2 tuk add kat ma blog! tapi sume macam xberkenan..:(
now…timer :20.26pm…hurmmm?!! ma hs kring-kring!! hiskk~~ hurmm.. Slym mzcalled!.. hiks!!surely baru blk dari umah owg kawenn…kat Sban tuh!:P….!!”tiang-kayu for that msculingg….”~~mr.kiasu@@@..:P..
watt todo after thiz??.. hurmm listening to “Mungkin Nanti… ” remind me to him :X..”Ketakjuban”oso.. n …”antara cinta & kasih”…!!!~~ je’teame…~~
to nite aku titun awl, 11.30 dh shut down pc n titun.. hurmm, but dlm 12.30 camtuh aku t’jaga coz tipun umah aku bunyik!!damn…!!kaco titun aku… hurmm, n tetibe tringat kat hide, n missed him… aku mscal2 die, n then.. he called me back.. die dh charged phone die.. yeh! yeh////.. hurmm… wat the story?? soh die gusuk gigi before sleep… ~…borak2 biase ngan die, but stil in the mood for luv, but… last tuh, hd made me hurt!! damn!!benci!!…spoil ma mood!!n had made ma hart hurt, bleed…!!maybe, its good to be truth, but …….jelousy?arghhh!!!damnit!!!hate to think bout it!~~feew like ur using ma sweet innocent gurlish stail (me),arent u? nape ia blaku pada aku!!!huh!!!….??!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
GOOD NITE…. muahhsss :-*
hurmmm.. ma hart wuz crying..cry out loud!! ……
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Saturday, August 28, 2004
hurrmmm…
Whee~~~ i’m backk to thizz buity luvly dejavuu…!! yeh….yeh…did anyone missed me??….huks..;p….read ma luv’s sturyy eva..
saturdayyy!!…huhu.. lamerr nyer xblogig since tats day!tats hard memorable times days..!!!hurrmmm….
hurrmm….
but to dayy is jz the saME.. nutiNG extRaordinaRY,…stickinG maSeLf wiF wORKS..from 9.00pm to 6.00 huRmm..but 2day BaLIkk kIJE pun biT laTE, huRMM kijer oKey la, noMore mistakeS,tapi biaselaa kalo bOSS cHiness sUme kiJer keNe cepat & pikaP skiT, baiK nGan anak autie tuh Chai Shu LInG:X cute jer, suke betui die gurau2 ngan aku, tulah hurmm kids memang easily get close wif me!!snrok plak rase:) cam ade adik jer!!……6.20p.m bR aBis..6.40pm bR saMpaI umAh..n diNNer..:) huh…starvING giLORS..time tuh!
tHat NiTE bOUT nEaRLy 8pm, gaYUTs wiF Hide bouT 1 hour 30minutes!!…thing yG aku paling2 suKe lakukan aafter coming bacK from woRK…talked to sum1 that u reaLYY lurF..cAn i saY that?..but…..!!soweiii..
walaupun kau bukan kekasihnamun *bukan sekadar teman biasa*hadirmu membawa cahaya*dihati nan terluka*di antara cinta dan kasih*apakah ada jurang pemisah*hadirmu membawa cahaya*dihati nan terluka oh sayangku…. hukSS Aishah ’song!
i’v been too emotional rite now!!..
i juz want u tobe fair… & square~~…
arghhh..ma hart wuz crying rite now!!!:((….till ??when?…1 day??
HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***HIDE***
downloading***pEtErPAN!! – quite”gerek arrr..”.. hurmm lame tak used that word!!….
hurmmm…thanks for luvinG me…(dream…lil dream..)n n will neve eva lose ma passion to dream!!
let my hart chears the moment even itz juz a dream..!!pliz dunt wake me up!!coz i’m too scared.. but i’v to face e realityyy..
hurmm… “dibelakangku….”..mungkin nanti”….
“bintang di surga.. intro bit scared.. hisks…!!”ku kata nanti… pun beshh…”..huks!!…to be continued…
good nite huney…
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Friday, August 27, 2004
semua tak sama…
tak pernah sama..
apa yg kusentuh…
apa yg ku kecup…
hurmmm….. lotsa ting d happened.. ..:)..
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004
murninggg….
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me……………..
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Monday, August 23, 2004
morninnGGGG…
hurmm… gotta song dedicated 2 me frm ma fren..
(Muse – Unintended….)
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one
I’ll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one
I’ll always love
I’ll be there as soon as I can
But I’m busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I’ll always love
I’ll be there as soon as I can
But I’m busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before
I’ll be there as soon as I can
But I’m busy mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before Before you…
tx…Slymboyd!!…
i dunno how to say … but i jz miss him..yg dulu… .. that nite, cal Zul.. coz maybe dah beminggu2 xdgr citer dr die.. hihi, pergh majuk die .. coz aku sumbung, die leh tau citer aku dah kije pun from mum coz die cal aku xdpt.. hiks sowei zul.. maybe aku bit bizi skit, or aku dah mls…xde mut:P
…..
that nite, 11.30pm aku dh tetitun…. sambil2 download lagu MUSE.. then,… tersedar coz hide cal…hurmm.. die ingat aku majuk ngan die.. hiks…die msg kat Y.m aku xreply, die cal 2kali br aku trangkat, serius shit.. aku ttido, maybe aku bit trasa ngan die .. tp maybe thatz only small2 things!.. die kate die rs mcm dh lost kite, hurmm… noh! u wont lost me n dunt let it happened.. cuz i owiz here.. for u… die kate, pasni.. tiap2 kali ckp ngan kite, he’ll shut off tv!.. tx.. appreciate that… n sori bout myspace tuh!…n sori bout Slymboyd!!..;;)!!!..
hurmm… die start cal kite from 12.49am… ended 3.30a.m till kredit die hbs.. n continued mine..
hurmm… but 1thing… die “bermusim” – maybe coz die staying in JAPAN 4 season country…same like his lurf…!!.. diff to me, i jz praying for a person 1 season lurf.. lurf 4eva,wud lurf me eva… n i miss it!..but i trust u.. ur lurf, i jz hope u wont changed if u meet other person..,& me too..:(
otey sampai disini saje… nite2..nite… :X espk kijer!!!
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Sunday, August 22, 2004
morning glurrrieee…….. today is like other ordinary day…
hurmm.. hurmm…. arini terbangun kul 8.00.. adeh..HS bunyik-bunyik!!..adeh!!!.. …!!!…:X…tulun-tulun!!titun balik n been distracted by paktih hik- ADEH KUAT NYER BUNYI TPUN UMAH AKU NIE, betui2 tepi telinge!!.. die nak dtg umah.. hiks.. lunch masak2 wif kak eda & co. huks..masak ayam hiks.. ikan bako.. sayur.. HUks!!besh2..buncit dah pewuttt.. lamer xmkn ngan dieorg sesame kat umah…hiks..!!!:P…
***************lips are turning blue..
***************a kiss that cant renew ..
***************i only dream of u… my beautiful…
***************tiptoe 2 ur room..
***************a starlight in the gloom..
***************i only dream of u…
***************n u neva knew.. -MUSE (SING FOR ABSOLUTION!)
argh besh lagu ni… absolution(Muse…) lame tak lyn MUSE…hukss.. our woahh.. “thez nowhre..left to hide.. in no one to confide, the truth burn deep inside and will neva die!!..
“our wrong remind unrectified, n our souls won’t be axhumed…” arghhh sedey lagu nie!!!:((… hurmm… wat to do ehh? sembang2 ngan ma “maktih” n kak eda.. hurmm..kak eda citer bout her collieque yg suffering after married! yah!! susahnye.. sume xde duit..:( .. nak balik umah parents pon kene naik motor jer wif her husbie from Bahau to Perak!!, man.. dah lah pregnant giler sian aahh… sumtimes kene noreh getah aaa…!!rumah xde tv la.. man!! cian aa.. !!..dunt ave enuf money tuk life die..n oso.. !!ishhh… bahyer je rs.. so mum ckp, benda tuk future ni kene fikir betui2.. actually maybe bcoz xde family planing.. huh!but bit teruk aa kalo life mcm tuh!!…so pepepun beta fikir dulu!!..;P..lepas minum ptg bout 6.00ptg, kak eda pun blk…!!!…
huh…. rite now fikirrrr.. tomolooooo nak kijerrr lagi……………………. MALASNYeR NAk BaNgUn PaGI2…..
rite now pun aku mcm fikir sumbody…nape die tak miscal kiter???die dah bertolak ke? bile die sampai?…I MISS HIM… can u feel wat i feel???do u feel de same way too??>>>>:(… i jz miss him….BADLYYYY…..~~ hope u can call me now!!:(.. waiting for u
Td ave sum cet wif ma lil huney bee Shasha baby… she miss her darling baby boo, so.. kiter pun gv sum advises.. to her!!…dunt worry baby.. he’ll mz u 2..n he’ll lurfe u coz ur a gud gurl!….~~coz u deserve to be loved…!!.. wat the boring evening…no one msg me.. noone cal.. noone..jz lone here!!now is..6.17pm…huh!!panas kat luar tuh, maybe tunite ujan..mcm last nite …beSH tuk TDO….~~~
to be continued…..
7:28:42…. Hide online..dah balik die …
Petzo call aku! pergh… lame gilos xdgr citer die.. die pun pelik aku pun mendiamkan diri, msg pun langsung xbalas.. hihi.. soweiii……bit bz bout malife now… that nite b4 sleep Hide cal up!.. gayutz ngan die.. till titun… nite2..ayu n ave beautifuldream.. eva~~….
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Saturday, August 21, 2004
Hours fly, flower die…
New days ..new ways..
pass by..love stays…
MoRnInG tO aYuE..aGaIn….
5.00a.m, kite dah terbangun.. but then, ma alarm xbunyik lgi.. then, tetitun.. n tbgn 5.30am biler alarm from hs tuh bunyikkk…!!wake him up!!…take care aittt…!!huh..rs de weird feeling.. feel lk die makin jauh.. dunno y!but ave fun thre!!:).. continue titun.. till 8.00am, mum wake me up!! huh!! luper kije arini!!huh!..penatnyer…malas jer.. but hd to..biler dah kije nie rs makin byk responsibilties..n sincerity pon kene ade !..yah!!. to day.. kije cam bese..!huks.. arini auntie soh bwk anak yg gurl tuh g bli kasut plak hiks…mcm2.. then, aku kene g umah auntie kat Taman Baiduri ngan Ah Ping tuk amik CPU agi!! hihi.. xpe.. at least dpt duit minyak gaks!..hihii..! arini lunch mum kat Bakery Cottage jer.. xde mood nak mum nasik!..bout 1.00 lebey, Hide mscall.. maybe die dah sampai… 2times..:) hopefully he’s gonna b otey!!…..i jz msg him back!.ave fun thre!.. arini xramai cust, so kije pun xbyk..senyap je..
balik kije…..bfore that, cam teringin nak mum nuttela..so g bli…:X rm6.90..!!blk2 online n blogie.. huh.. ingat Hide.. 1st time tengok die xde..:( ..sedey lak ghase..:(… then, tengok tV cite Table For Two.. comeyy citer tuh!! luV story..real LOve..!!!….8.00pm, hide mzcal..2times.. mesti die dah “mandi-mandi” kat air panas tuh! hiskkk… …
to be continued…
tengah2 ngumpat dgn Sha2 psl Hide.. Die call aku.. xlama.. bout 4minits jer:(..maybe cal hs, so rate die tinggi… mlm tuh, kite msk nasi goweng..heheh…:) ma mum xbrape sihat..:(..!!!..tonite dunt ave much todo…jz miss him jer!!cal die tp xdapt..:(..nape eh?..u jz far-far away…wat eva u d done i dunno… but pliz dunt change… nomore negetive thought… !!trust him..!!:X…then, bile cal dpt plak.. tp xclear, die ckp bar kat Hs die 1 jer..sumtimes ade.. sumtimes xde.. tanye die de cal sesape tak b4 thz!! he said xde..ntahlah..bile putus then he called me back.. from 11.36pm till 11.59pm je…kejap aje:( maybe rate tinggi…die citer bout air pns kat situh!die mkn…his words buat aku jd tenang….calm..!!!hati aku cepat lembut…(hopefully tuk kite je!!:X)….last wish from him…”Miss U”..syg sy?” – & i replied…”TooooKKKKK!!!”:P//hheheh….!!
Sudenly, i got message from sum1 yg mmg xdikenali no… then, baru tau no. baru Azam! huks.. dah ade hs baru ghupenye die!!….Occhh!!Slym cal me up- whre u got ma num?!!.. u damn Slymbloyd…haks!!clumsy argh die.. unexpected betui…(bak kate sha2 org tinggi bit clumsy- maybe she’s rite!!)!!- peliks betui…n apsal skung orang asik ilang HS??… simcard pun leh ilang.. huks…..!!n aku sendiri baru planning nak bli HS baru.. tunggu gaji last!! haha..:P..
Wuargggggggwuarghhhhh now is 12.43am.. mate dah ngantuk gilosss..ntah bape kali nguap…bape kali terlelap dpn mr.blog nie…!!last2 tetido dpn monitor…bgn2 dah 1.30am…letihlah… n nak tdo….
remember tonite….remember thz lyrics.. ” two people tourching lips,hands n each other hips,nuting else in d world but 1another,,so put down ur hollow lips n kiss ur lovers….And learn that fate is what you make of it”….remind me to Brandon Slymboyd..-Agoraphobia!! ***********kat luar angin + ujan skit2 pada la mlm ni panas….argh besh tdo mlm nie…hopefully…lah…
hurmmm cet wif ma lil cutie bro “Azri… hiks….” nak sgt die nak tgk blog aku!! then.. i put ur name in ma blog bro!!.. dunt forget to tag sum msg k! hukss…!!! hurmmm wat else ?…
i want to sleep……..!!!! to the slumbernesssss,,,,,,,
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I’d be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart’s beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start I’ll tear us apart
Can I be your enemy
Losing half a year
Waiting for you here I’d be your anything
Tearing out my heart I’d be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings disappear
Can I be your memory ….(memory!!!….-Sugarcult)
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Friday, August 20, 2004
mOrNiNG…….aYuEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!…!!!!……
Love Song (311)
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love youI will always love you
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away,
I will always love you
However long I stay,
I will always love you
Whatever words I say,
I will always love you
I will always love you….
morning… to ayue… 8th days of woks… force ma self get up from thiz bed… !! b4 g kije i must cal him!!…as ussual 9.00am, sampai tempat kijer.. kemas2 skit.. cam biase.. n uat kije skit2!!…today, 3.00pm,hantar anak auntie g tuisyen, hiks.. dapat lah duit minyak rm5, huks… besh2… kije kat sini sronok coz xde la duk je dlm opis.. byk mende yg aku stil blaja!!:P go slowieee….!!!…!!5.00pm plak amik anak aunit blk…!! … huh! xlame lagi aku maybe nak berpindah ke Can Technologies(M) Sdn. Bhd.. hukss.. sronok.. siap de card lagiks!! idayu abd. wadud, ass admin excutives.. hahah….!!:P.. bunyi cam ade gempaks skit.. huks..!! arini banje… hurm, rm4.70 tuk lunch, rm10 tuk isi minyak kete….6.30pm, blk umah… trus online… n c.. lepask2.. then cet wif Azam.. alahai… lame giler die xonline.. n susah betui die nak cal aku!.. cian die…!!tomollooo die nak blk SP..hiks.. Skang aku layan lagu 311- Love Songs.. member aku soh dgr!! perghh fall tengok lyrics die… …” how eva far away i’ll alwiz lurve u..howeva long I stay..i’ll awiz luv u..”..that nite, ma hart hd been touched by sum1…giler touching aaa…shocked!… Song-”I’m lOSt without U…”.. remind me to ma frenzter @ Gmi frenz.. Shahrul!.. HUks.. die bit maniac ngan musics.. songs, lyrics!! etc.. pergHH..n of coz wif Incubus..Slymboyd Brandon baby.. huks.. ingat pic kat ym aku!! giler cun aaahh!!…:X..ciloks dr die gaks..but wif his permission aite?! (soweii u)!!…..!!cet wif sha beb.. sronoks.. !!windu die..tat notty2 gurl!! ..sexy..hott!! flaminGG.. hehehe… n lastly bootylicious…chick!!huks.. together wif her style to seduce every guyz! huk kiding…!!!she’s a gud gal!!neva been anytin’… but got lotsa ILMU!!!!! huksd.. die cter bout Shukri.. how she hopes.. die will eppy till end wif him.. !!..Owh.. i owiz pray for u ..owiz pray dear , do u know…how much i luve u sha?(hikS- thz is not lesBO sentence k!!!)….. Ok… now i nak story bout Hide dearie plak….Hurmmm… nomore word “HYde..” starting from today.. it becomes… “HIDE”..!! tomoloww… die g jenjalan n ave fun!!…kat mane ntah wif his frenz n his lec ehhh?…gonna miss u dear… !!b4 sleep, i hope he’ll cal me but die xcal pun ..so..i cal him up..jz wanna say TaKe Care for tomoloooo….. but.. not that only… hukss.. bout 45minutes kot.. hurmm.. told him wat i actually felt… die kate, die xbrubah.. he still “sayang -only me”..but i feel like..sumting wuz wrong since that damn day .. keep haunting me over n over…!!i’ll try to laugh for him… try to make maself eppy..!chear up the day…!!wat else can i do? sabar n tunggu & trust him- (trust sum1 that u luv most )…but the real feel is in mahart!!..noone knows.. the truth..thoz hurt,thoz tears..& thoz LURVE!!ave lil faith in me… my eppy ending..opss.. tomoloww.. ave to wake him up…5.30a.m… so beta sleep now.. gud nite ayue.. !!muahss… :-*……
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
………………..the story of the murning glory!!…..;;) wakeup at 8.00am inde muninG go for WorKK, so much things d happened laSt nite~~…!!! before that,…
kite call HYDE..!!sj kaco die titun!!;;).. !!kaceh, sbb still cayang kiter!! :X…tp jap je cal coz direct cal!!:(…tade duitt… hikss.. but yesterday dpt duit gaji 16hari kije kat AFAMOSA… hehhe.. patut dpt rm399.++ tp, sbb tade notice so, kene tolaks!! tinggal lah rm230, pergh cedeyy betuiii… 1st gaji aku in ma whole life !!! hurmm.. cayang betui kat gaji tuh!!..:X…..arini kat opis kije cam bese… auntie xde pun marah aku kalo aku tersilap, ish2… aku lak rase bersalah, arini auntie banje KFC hehhe… beshhh 
…balik cam biaselah kul 6.00pm, hisk.. then, singgah jap kedai tipun, bli I-Talk,… balik2 trus rs nak cal sum1..(*), hurmm ntah laa…skung ni ade weird feeling in ma hart xmcm dulu!!- …..nape ntah aku xmcm dulu?y i bcome so closure..!!y rase len!!?rs trpakse nak lyn sume org!rs macam xpatut je…y bcome like thiz?asik nak sakit hati org, teringat hati2 org yg dah aku sakitkan!!pe cite die?…..citer pasal Hyde, die ckp die ngat kiter..bila masak…bile duk dpn pc.. bila2…!!mekasiH!!…yeke?.. mlm tuh online,..br nak tegur Hyde.. die suh tunggu..coz die tgh slisifaham + tension!!ngan Ila bout abortion.. anak angkat bla2…!!..rase mcm owng bodo plak aku!!- ntahlah… trasa pun tak berbaloi…!! – tringat lyrics “I’m Lost Without U”.. trust usha lagu die!!.. not bad lah guks!! Blink-blink… layan laGU tuh.. …., owh!! apply UITM online
10.30 tgk Dalam Hati Ada Cinta….
till 11.00, arghh cedih citer tuh… sian die kene berkorban cinta semata2 kakak die!!! man.. giler sedih a.. “Kasih Tak Sampai…”)..tape2.. hopefully de Happy Ending…!!kla… enuf sampai sini….
(* Hyde kat dapur, tengah siap2 stuff BBQ die tuk die pergi ti….i’m alone here!!….) gonna miss him…!!!
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to be continued.. tak touch up lagi!!!!… saje tuko size tulisan & font Trebuchet nie..wuar-wuar-wuar!!!
GUD NITE….. AYUEEEE…….!!!:x
then.. ngantukss.. letak pale atas tilam.. n mzcal Hyde… n he call me back!!- gayuts ngan die!- tp rase kejap je pun maybe near 1 hour kot dunno… tp die kate die br charge.. !!ntahlah!!!sedey… …!!sedey…die cite psal mum die…n die citer pasal die penah jatuh beskal n tangan die retak la mase die form4 on his bufday (27 nov)…tangan kiri die lg kuat dr tangan kanan la…n cerita2 sampingan kot… tp rs kejap jer arghh.. ape lagik ehh???…. lasty!!! he said.. “moi pour toi”… miss u…”
off handphone… n titun..!!!…………….
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Wednesday, August 18, 2004
ayue tak tau nak crita ape?!!! ayu xde mood nak crita!!…ayue need rest!! ayue need sleep….!!! – ayu dah penat!!letih!!… MAAFKAN ayue…~~~
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
The Perfect Mood for today issss….BENCI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
morninggg.. ayu…. wake up early inde muning… hardd!!too damn hard- wake up from my beloved darling baby…sape yg sanggup tinggalkan darling tuh:((!!yelahh.. but- becoz of nak cari “sesuap nasik” hiks… so, kene aa rerajin alaahh word tuh, macam owang tak berdaya miskin sgt plak (…. …
to be continued…..
hurm, today customer xramai sangat, but…still got works todo, ok aa tuh dari busan!!hurm, ade satu customer ni arabic nak cari mini pocket cd-rw, habis satu tampin xde die ckp, but Alhamdullilah kat Chai ni ade! hiks.. punyer la gumbira that arab…hiks.. ..arini lunch mam roti jer, nak diet la… hikss~ time rest tuh, met ma old2 frenz Nani.. Nani tuh baik sangat n bersopan santun, cantik…lembut jer…~ dielah skoolmate aku mase form1-3 yg baik ngan aku, study same2…hisk..ingat Nani naik beskal!!!!mak die pun baik ngan aku… hiks..!!lame xjumpe mak die, besh jumpe mak die ade je benda die puji aku!hisk…. Then, met senior aku,kak Ina – ngan husband die.. terperanjat gaks.. tengok pewut die “Besoo..” pregnant dah 8month.. eiii.. die baru je 23! eii takut!!ish…tengok..pegang pewut die, caner la rase ti.. eh..rase mcm xmo kawin!! eii… gerun je!! tp, bila dah mcm tuh, kite kan feel naluri sowang “Ibu”…n baby..!!comey ~~!! citeer pasal opis, auntie xbrape sihat, but die still kene kije!! camtuh la sabarnyer die…bukan senang nak kayerrr!! betui kate auntie..!!business bukan senang, but kite mesti sabar + pandai!!… !!! Hari ni spend… hurm rm5.20 tuk lunch!!30inggit tuk card!!balance dlm purse ade…rm50.++sen arghh… …
8.13pm, lapornyer rase…. !!tapi nasi tak masak lagi… (, rase tak semangat jer…. …
“as it is promised
by the wind,
as it is tendered
in the heart,
as it is written
across the sky . . ….”the means of LOVE.
Dengar lagu Jikustik “Apalagi yang kulakukan….” : (bila kata-kata tak lagi menjadi bermakna.. apa lagi yang kulakukan… bila syair dan nada… tak jua lumpuhkan hatimu.. apalagi yang kulakukan… seluruh jiwa ragaku serahkan hanya kepadamu…semangat hidupku, apa saja pastikan ku lakukan hanyalah untukmu harapan hidupku… *bila semua daya telah ku kerahkan tuk HATIMU…mu, apalagi yang ku lakukan….bila syair dan nada tak jua lumpuhkan hatimu…~~*)..LALALA…..!!
sumtimes… kite rase nak diri eppy, but then, sad comes…!! banyak benda kite blaja dlm hidup nie..tak sume orang tuh same, tak sume leh buat ape yg kite nak die buat!!..maybe kite nak die eppy bile die tau kite ada, but.. sumtimes…tuh tak jadi, hakikat nilah yang kene kite terima.. walau mcm mane pun indahnye sesuatu tuh bermula…pasti ade buruknya akan datang!!aku bit trasa ngan apa yang terjadi hari ni, tapi aku tau.. pasti ade yg indahnya akan datang!!dan aku cube berjanji pada diri aku supaya lebih lebih…!!- aku xmo kacau die tdo lagi!!i dunt want to hear die marah “jangan kaco sy tdo!!”…!!maybe tindakan luar kawal tuh leh hurt kan org…n u hurt!!sori..!maybe aku dah over the limit!!!!….SALAH KAHH AKU??…. OKLAH, nak isi borang MMU.. ESOK NAK KEne posT!!..SO beta Doit Now!!…:P…
TO OR NOT TO BE.. is to BE….continued…
TAK jadi ISi boraNG… COZ BYK Sgt PARTICULARs yg die Nak….
NAPE MANUSIA SENANG BERUBAH?????……
BENCI! BENCI!BENCI!BENCI!!!!….
ADE LAGI PERFECT WORD DR BENCI!!!….
y must i got stuck in thiz!!!……DAMN!!
i know everything bout u, u told me …when u snored, when u ate, when u slept…when u miss n luv sum1…the person who’S luv u!ZILA & AIDA etc2….i can read u…i can feel wat u feel.. even its too hard for me to accept thoz feels… its so damn hurt!!…can i stop thiz feeling?can i?as what u want me todo!!??stop luving u?…am I? aku bukan SENANG BERUBAH…..!!only thoz tears yg bagi aku guts tuk trus…:)…!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BOSANNNNNNN!!!!!!!BOSANNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!
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Monday, August 16, 2004
murninggg… ayuu….
wake upp.. tuk kijee!!8.00am.. arghhh so damn malasss… tapi disebabkan comitment kat kije tuh lebih coz nak dpt duit, so i got to push ma self get up from thiz bed!!!:(( arghh ku tak relaa…. (….beshnyer titun…. bangun2 dah mandi..then siap2… bfore bekfas, tipun ma lil “hyde”..!!! before gi kije tuk dapt semangat skit – get the spirit from the one that u really luv!!huks..:P…..
hurmm… 12minutes dah sampai tempat kije 9.00am, arini auntie cepat skit coz aku sesampai die dah de!!..n as usual kemas2 skit..hurmm.. today, sales xbrape.. rm207 total kat sales listing je !!betui ckp auntie.. business skang really2 down!!!tengah2 kije Azam call- huh!! tapi xsempat nak layan die, yelah aku tengah kije.. sian die tiap kali die call, aku tak dapat nak layan.. last nite aku tdo…arini kije plak, nak call die pun xtau caner!!sowei frenz!!… and then, ade owng salah num ngan aku!! sakit hatinyeer.. then tak reti bahasa plak tuh… asikla nak call..aku xlayan trus cancel call tuh! bengang giler aahh..lately ni, everyday ade je owg salah num ,tak pun ade je num2 tak dikenali appeared, misscall kat hs aku!!tensi betui!!!……n today aku mmg careless skit, i had made 2 mistakes..huks.. 1st, salah tulis invoice num, 2nd wrong serial num..!!camner tah!bley careless….mane aku letak mata aku ntah.. but luckily, auntie tak marah pun! – but if die mrh pun i had to deserve aa.. coz its absolutely ma fault!!..:P…!!hurm.. drive home, before that isi minyak kreta rm10, then terserempak fami pun baru abis kije, die melintas betui2 kat depan kete aku!!hisk…!!
6.30pm sampai umah! cal hyde ..aku rase nak sangat ckp ngan die!!…miss him to the max!! that nite, aku dinner ikan keli masak lemak, sayur n sambal ikan bilis.. gile pedas aaa mum masak!! but cedappp…:P.!!….hurm, hyde asyik ngan tv die jer..sedih gaks!!xmo layan aku la tuh!!hate itt!!..bout 10pm aku tengok tv.. but then tv yg tengok aku.. hiks:P…11.50pm br terjaga n trus masuk tdo…bfore that i gv msg tuh Hyde.. then he called me up! wish me gud nite as ussual lah!!:P..n die stay agi tengok tv tuh!!cant u feel wat i feel?man…. benci!! tdo asik terjaga2…y huh?…okla nite2 to ma self.. tata..:P
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Sunday, August 15, 2004
yeh2.. Sunday!! Sunday!!!
yeh2…. arini cuti dayyy.. no need to kije…, but i’m still wake up early coz mum dah bising2!! yah! nottt that “early”..la.. bout 8.30 am! hakss,,, then, ave breakfasstt!! hehhe.. !!kenyang pewuttt laaa..tembikai dahhh.. hiksss.. then, rest jap n.. kemas2 umah.. cleap up all the the messy things kat bedroom aku nie!! hurrmm.. dah 1 week aku tak lap2 .. so dusk all over dah!!-geezzz… xbleyyy tahan.. then, kemas2 all the things kat dlm bilik nie, n sapu2 skit.. since aku kije, bedroom aku nie dah jadi hape ntah!!!sume cutie2 things dah tunggang-tebaliks!!srabutss aku… !! then, aku kemas umah plaks.. clean living hall tuh, dining…vacum all the habuk2!!and mop!!huarghh….penat !!!then, 11.30am.. tengok Malaysian Idols! … i’d voted for Jac n Dina!!abis rm1 kredit aku!! 50 cent per sms…but apepun i voted only for the best!!- perghhh Jac nyer voice wuz perfecctttt…judges pun gave high compliment kat die… Dina pun w/pun comeyy n temblemm.. but her voice wuz absolutely outstandingg maa…!!-gilerrr pok aaahh hiksss… then, after tengok Mesian Idols.. kene masak plakkss… sambal udang wif carots, sayur n goweng telur.. hukss… w/pun sambal tuh xla besh as mum cook tp.. bley aa nak idup!!hihi.. tak tau nak uat besh like mum.. hhihi… (Sambal – teringat kat Hyde):P…………
hurmmm……that eveningg… juz ave voice chat2 wif Hyde!!:P….. nak bouquet of roses from him?? for ma convo! 13Sept!!hiks.. kidingg… i know he’s too far… !!- nite??..hurmmm? wat d happened huh? hurmmm.. downloading..downloading… sambil2 ceting2, Hyde bz wif Tv..muvi!!hate itt!!tinggal i sowang.. hiks.. but, then ave cet wif ma lil sha2 , she’s got probs , trasa ngan her lil huney bee.. , yah..cian die!hurmm… nape sum person cannot deserve the way other person look?issit physically attraction such beauty, handsome, j.lozzz, or machoz is the most important things to look at?..or his or her hart??man.. hopefully ade org will accept the way i am… !! judge my hart, emotion & not at etc2 sampingan tuh!!-cet wif ma lil bro “Azri”..!!cutie, bubly bro…hukss.. lazyy bamm uat assg die tuh!! so… as his lil macho sistahh, aku pun bebel la…n include sum of the tip-tip dalam study nie!!actually the real “idayu” ni pun.. sangat malasss…!!all the kije wuz totally last minutes.. but, still “perfect”… normallah.. nak idup rite??so.. we got to use medula oblagatta, paramblix cortex…bla2… yg de kat brain tuh!hahah…ape yg aku dah merepek nie?!!-
nearly 1.00am, gotta sleep, tomollooo nak kijerr wohhh!!!Hyde pun… soh kite titunnn.. before that die cal n wish gud niteee…:)!!hopefully i can sleep….ZZzz…. lay to slumberness….
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
Morninggggg………………
wake up subuh, then tak tdo …sempat online n blogging. ceting jap wif fahmi@tooblur cousin shoki, lame giler die tak online…tuday, breakfast kat luar koz mum tak uat bekfas-mum roti planta !.. 9.00 gi kedai tuh.. 3rd day work!! Work kat sini not so bored coz customer owiz comes… kene layan!! n tgk2 computer stuff…!!besh. Afternoon black-out!! apsal ntah, so sume kije xleh uat!!susah nak repaire pc! Then bout 30minutes after that ok dah!… today, aku dah kene uat surat tuk bakal pengarah aku kat CAN Tecnologies Sdn. Bhd… and Memorendum of Understanding(MoU). Nie plak syarikat produce software… ade die bagi free installation kat Jabatan Pelajaran Melaka. Then i meet Mr. Lim, the software manager …Mr. Chai pun ade kongsi in thiz company..quite bz gaks.. bile petang lotsa things todo, till 6.00pm, auntie soh aku balik.!!:)… baik je auntie tuh.., suke kije kat sane, opis die cantik, bersih… comfort…..etc!! kire the best computer company kat Tampin, Mr. Chai meniaga pun dah bout 12 years!! before that die jd supplier tuk skolah2..n he knew ma mum also…!!…hopefully 1day aku pun nak bukak business gaks – thats ma dream!!hehehe..
Then, before go home, singgah pasar mlm bli minum petang…
n then mumum..
then i felt like Missssss sumbody??..
trus online n ceting jap wif “my precious :X”.. 8.30pm, rs letih sgt… nak nap jap..1hour and soh ma precious kejut at 9.30pm…
tp tgh2 titun.. bout 9.28pm, Azam call me up- dah la cal tipun umah- tekujut aku! tp time tuh pale cam blur2…xingat sape cal, gipun die cal public..!!rupenye dah 2 missed call kat hs, kire tido mati aku!!xdgr bunyi hs.. huar-huar-huar, sgt letih…. 9.33pm, HYde kejutt kite.. “yang ku tunggu…..” he call me up!!.. dgr sore die dah uat aku trus smgt, w/pun still ngantuksss….Zzzz.. lepas die cal, kite sambung titun til 11.00pm…terjaga coz dapat mimpi cedih:(!!..trus2 online..
to be continued***
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wake up…. n online, yah!! wat else yg besh pun nak uatt??!!mata pun cam lalok2 bile ceting.. so clean up ma face 1st!!huks..yeh..yeh… ceting meet ma lil bro Azriiii… !!windu kat die…lame gilos tak dgr citer…till 1.00am, aku tdo…
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Friday, August 13, 2004
murninggggg…..
hurmm… wat to story aittt? wake up subuhh then.. cal up ma Hyde dearie, n his so damn cute voice…luv it!!sore bangun titun die bit “machozzzz” kalo len2 tuh xbraper kott!!….gayuttt jap ngan die, n then continue ceeeeeepinggggg..ZZZZzzz!!!! wake back at 8.00am.. second day work!!! hukss.. kene semangat skitttt… hukssss..!! siap2, ingat nak cal back Hyde before gi kije, tp sempat ckp bout 2minutes jer..coz dah lambat!!:P…bertolak from umah bout 8.45am, sampai2 9.00am, but auntie tuh xbukak lagi kedai, bit late sebab die kene hantar baby die.. bila sampai, kemas2 kedai tuh…bit ramai gak customers arini.. yang beshnyer i met ma oldskul frenz @ classmate of sc muar, “ezi”!!hiksss.. tekujut gaks coz dah bout 5yers++ tak meet die!!-gile lame, die kat ireland upenye !!-amik medic, Medic..hate madic..coz i hate bios..even aku leh score bio!tp mencinye duing bio stuff-lec!!hihi..hukss ingat mase matriculation, akulah org plg tak semangat dtg clas bios even lec tuh punyer la baikk.. akulah owang yg suke titun dgr lec bio.. hahah..tapi leh proud kat diri sendiri coz even camtuh 3sems got straight A’s haah!! i luv calculus..luv maths!!tp penah gaks kantoi math sbb blank mase xm!!xtitun.. so moral of the story,…we must sleep early before xm…then, jumpe ma old-old tuition frenz.. apetah name die!! hikss.. perghh..n meet fami huks.. atlasttt.. !!!… onthe way back jumpe ma cutie Nani, makin vogue aku tengok die.. !!.. hehe..!! balik2 minum low fat yogurt drink wif orange flavour.. sambil cal up ma Hyde dearie..!!time tuh die tgh goweng ikan..nak mumum.. tp aku disturb die jap!! (soweiiii uat awk kelaparan…..). then, kite tgk tv jap.. n cont online cet wif Hyde baby..hahah.. that baby tua…hehe!!8month plus we been known…each other!!today is our 8 month anniversary….~~dari dulu sampai skung.. i’m still the same..!!and we been through lotsa things kan?.. dan aku dengan penuh kesabaran owiz… . that nite, dgr Fami men gitur sambil nyanyi lagu Dewa – Cinta!!huks..lame gilos xdgr die main gitur!!arini die uat konsert jap,goreng fami..goreng… tp jap je.. hiks:P… then.. aku gi tgk tb.. bout 11.30pm, rase mcm nak cal up Hyde gi skali..hihiii….tgh2 ckp ngan Hyde, ma frenz.. Azam cal up…haahaa.. ckp ngan die bout 5minutes!!:P…. !!then continue wucinggg muvie Bruce Willie bakon… till 12nite, n then br rase nak gayuts2 ngan Hyde, gayuting ngan die sampai ma card abis… 1hour 7minutes camtuh, -kire 16 card italk akudah bli utk cal die n 1 kad ring2 total rm500, tp aku tau nilai tuh xsama ngan nilai die cal aku dari dulu everyday die cal!! hurmm…borak ngan die bout die nak g briefing kat company sakura ape tah 24th nie, n die nak sgt kije japan tuh..tgl aku sowang kat mesia lagi….die kate wat eva pun kene setia pada yg satu, hopefully die pun mcm tuh…n die kate jgn sbb benda tepi2 we lost our precious ones!!..bile teputuss..then he called back!! tak tau sampai kul brape aku ckp ngan die.. lamenye gayutttinggg…. die nak sangat aku gi Japunnnn dari dulu…tp plan lepas raye.. siap nak sponsor agi, but… am i going thre? .. nak sangat jumpe die. or else i ave to wait..:(, but aku rase takut sgt, dlm mase 8month lagi lotsa things leh happen, changes..hopefully not..!!kalo sumting happened, mesti rasa sia-sia jer “word2- comey yg slalu kiteorg ckp.. nah!!…:(!! tp aku percya pada takdir… he knows wat i feel n i know wat he’s feel..n i wont change!!!! gayutttttzzz ngan die kunun2 die nak tgk opening olympic tp xde pon!hiks..\:D/…. last2 aku titun coz tomollooooo mau kije..kije..kije…. \:D/…
Zzzz..gudnite cutie, gudnite luv…
(padi – Ketakjuban… for me,.. mekaceh!!1)
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Thursday, August 12, 2004
morning..mr.blog….(*)
cam biase… 6.20am, mum wakes me up!!subuh..subuh…. then continue titun…. sambil dgr lagu “Bintang”..7.00am woke up.. n online…!!send email to him!!.. !~~dunt want to think bout it anymore….
wipes all the tears…let the brightness of today heal ur soul….sadness…(*) chear up dunt be sad..!!gonna work today!! mum hantar aku g tempat kije!! coz aku mmg takde mood nak drive that morning..!!.. sampai tempat kije, mr.chai dah ade n his wife, die bagi intructions kat aku bout works tuh!!yelah kije kat kedai computer..at least aku leh gain sum benefits on how to handle business. Walaupun gaji pun bout rm600 jer.. but dari aku asik stay kat umah.. atleast dapat gaks.. duit banje tuk ghayer!!auntie tuh pon macam baik jer.. sronok lak aku kije, w/pun aku rase aku sorang je malay kat syarikat tuh!!. aku rase, second times kije nie, aku takde la rase takut sangat maybe dah de lil bit expii kat afamosa Resort!!mum pun suke aku kije kat sini coz mr. chai kenal mum.. & mr. chai sowang yg soft-hearted.. ade sowang lagi aku kenal name die Lim- die pon cam besh, for the 1st day nie, mr. chai ckp, aku just tulun2 auntie tu kat front office.. so.. maybe senang la skit, duk depan comp.. layan customer nak bli stuff2 computer..blaja system kedai tuh etc!!then later on maybe aku kene kije syarikat die lagi satu, handle project menda ntah… i juz wait n c…!!auntie @ ms.Wong.. sowang yang talkative… hiks, malay die pun quite fluent..n ape yg besh.. die puji aku “cute”!!huks.. autie tuh pon wangi… perfume ape eh die pakai.. seems familiar to me…hahahha…!!!!balik bout 6.00pm, mum jemput… heheh.. sronoknyer… takyah drive….!!!\:D/.
sampai umah….i uat per ehhh???relax2 n mumum goweng pisanggg….n wucinggg tbz….!!ape lagi eppy???…now 8.45pm(ZZzzz….)))….
“Like LOve, was composed of plateus & valleys of serene silence as well as the clarion peals of trumpets, pain & turmoil were necessarry.. how else wud be appreciate moments such as this….” ( thiz poetry remind me to sum1…)-soulmatez.. sori lotz.. uv been forgoten.. (“bintang”)
“Gembira, sedih, cinta & benci adalah asam garam kehidupan. Kesempurnaan adalah kelemahan, kelemahan hidup dalam kesempurnaan.
Selepas malam ada sian, selepas hujan timbul pelangi, kegembiraan & kesedihan sentiasa ada dalam kehidupan kita, masa kesusahan jangan cepat mengalah, kehidupan terlalu indah….”
9.00pm.. nak wucing tbz..da!! to be continued….
huh… ngantuknyer.. pas makan sup ayam + sayur.. pas tengook “dalam Hati ada Cinta”, aku pun titun…!!! malam tuh, gayut ngan ma only soulmate jap, lame tak cal die cite pasal konvo aku… and pasal futher study tuh! n asual la.. gossip…!!n ade je menda “colorful” die ajak aku… ish2…12.00pm camtuh, ma frenz cal jap.. tp, aku mmg tade mood nak borak ngan die!!..then, sejurus tuh HYDE cal…borak2 ngan die… then aku rs cam tensi, tetidu.. dlm kul 1.10 aku terjaga dr titun pergh bad dream..!!!pasal konvo akuh!..trus rase nak cal sum1.. HYDE..heh.. ckp ngan die bout 7minutes, n kad aku habiss… dah.. then he called me back!! gayut sampai kul bape ntah.. aku pun luper…!!!hihi..aku cam oklah, xingat sgt pasal semalam..let it go by the flow…. n titun..titun…titun…
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
muning…muning….muning…..
wake up bout 8.50am ….coz nak gi teman mak gi pasarrrr.. before geraks cal ma Hyde, die baru bgn titun but i know after aku abis ckp ngan die, die akan continue sleeping – quite cute his voice!!luv itt, dgr suare die menenangkan….ave sum bekfas kat Hijjaz~~:P!!mumum meee gowenggg mamak…pewuuttt dah buncitttt….tembikaiiii !!then, cam search2 for jobz dah sangap asik duk umahhh.. duwiittt pun dah xde ( cry me a river…cry me a river…!!then, gi try kat Chai Computer tuh!!hantar resume..pergh2..!! tatau la dpt ke tak!!…hopefully okiez..!!.Gi supermarket jumpe lagi Si Fami tengah wat kije2 hisk…comey jer die aku tengok hiks , mlm tadi asiklah die soh aku cari kije, arini sebab Si fami soh cari kije, so aku gi Chai..lupe lak nak tanyer die kenal si fami ke tak!!sebab si Fami ckp die regular customer kat kedai tuh(yelakkottt ..eh fami???)!!…kalo nak kije kat kedai fast food nie, forsure mak aku tak kasi.. trutama KFc.. kang kena ape2 kang payah plak.. jatuh saham @ hantaran kawin aku..hhihii, kalo kije supermarket lagilah malasss…maybelah kot aku ni jenis choosiee skit,nak uat cane, dah aku mmg camnie… .
balik2 je, kul 12 lebey tuh… ingat nak cal Hyde, but he mzcal 1st!!Same instinct.. same mcm last nite, bfore slept, aku cal die n he called me at the same times!!..bile dgr pone umah die enggaged.. pewutt aku dah cakitt..n rs cam nak pning2 skit!!..dunno y…?!hurmm… sumtimes, aku terfikir gaks.. mcm2, n sumtimes rase takut tuh datang trutama bila that sweetie **** call die !!…coz sumtimes feel,emotion n hart can change easily. ..etc, eg:,thez a times when kite rase kite nak sangat orang tuh ade, but sumtimes… feels tuh leh ilang or changed! juz hope i can meet a person that ‘ll alwiz luv me only me…nomatter when…or wat…n will show his passionate,luv…n care n neva eva changed when he said “i luv u”(love means everythingz)!!-hihi..n lastly will ave eppy ending…. yahh…HIngga hujung waktu….”ayu talk bout her luv- her mr. right, her man “(day dream)…!!!….
Petang2 dalam kul 3.00pm, mr.chai tuh cal aku.. die dah bace resume aku!!huiik..aku tulis aku ade gud communication skill n can work under preasure!!hiks..so, die ckp if aku nak sahut challange tuk kije kat company die, n he will put me in front opis die, he’ll gv me 1-3 days untuk try..!!hopefully i can make it!! n die soh cal Ms. Wong!!..hiks..!!;;) sronok lak rase..intervieuw on phone je.. hiks..now is 3.36pm..abis dah aku blogging..
to be continued…
rase nak misscall die…:X.. uik… br ingat nak mzcal, die dah online!!
ade org dedicate song tuk aku… hihih sronoknyerrr :…
“I swear dat I cn go on forever again pls let me knw dat my one bad day will end I will go down ass ur lover, ur friend gimme ur lips and wit one kiss we begin… R u afraid of being alone cuz I am, I’m lost without u… R u afraid of leaving tonite cuz I am, I’m lost without u… I’ll leave my room open till sunrise for u… I’ll keep my eyes patiently focused on u… Where r u now? I cn hear footsteps, I’m dreamin.. And if u will, keep me frm waking to believe diz R u afraid of being alone cuz I am, I’m lost without u… R u afraid of leaving tonite cuz I am, I’m lost without u… R u afraid of being alone cuz I am, I’m lost without u… R u afraid of leaving tonite cuz I am, I’m lost without u… I’m lost without u I’m lost without u I’m lost without u I’m lost without u I’m so lost without u… ;j “
mekacehhh…..!!!
download lagu Dygta – Bintangku..
macam besh….
so check it out!!!lyrics die….
Kala malamku sendiri
Satu bintang temaniku
Bila malam telah berganti
Takkan kah kau tinggalkan ku
Sendiri ku melangkah tanpamu
Oh malam jangan kau pergi
Temani bintangku
Dan sampaikan lah salamku
Pada satu bintangmu, ku sayang
Kala langit penuh bintang
Takkan ku lepaskan bintangku
Walau cahayamu hilang
Kau kan selalu di hatiku
Bintangku…
Sendiri ku melangkah tanpamu
Oh malam jangan kau pergi
Temani bintangku
Dan sampaikan lah salamku
Pada satu bintangmu, ku sayang
Temani bintangku
Dan sampaikan lah salamku
Pada satu bintangmu, ku sayang
Semoga sinarmu kan selalu untukku ……
bout 6.00pm, time to watching….”Step To The Past” the last episode.. lastly, Hong @ Su Liong live eppily eva after, n sume history bout him had been distroyed!!..Tgh2 watchingg tb, Mr. Chai called me back!!-Tomoloo… die soh aku datang 9.30am, goshh.. tak sangka plak.. begitu pantasss… !! rase mcm still nak stay kat rumah, but i feel like nuting todo.. atleast, bile ade kije so leh dpt duit n gain sum experience yah!! for the second time!!hopefully~~…..!!! then… bout 7.0clock..da!!feel likess..nak cal sum1..yah..the 1 that ma hart alwiz miss… but i hate when he used the word “MAY BEEE….” means..LACK OF CONFIDENT….!!TRUST etc2.. oooohhh.. man.. (…” too much lurve can kill u!! “
suke dengar intro lagu Bintang nie…bunyi mcm chimes2… sesuai pada saat aku mengarang mlm nie, quite much yang aku story!!sonok lak rase.. hopefully thz sum1 yg tak dikenali yang terbaca blog nie!!n impress ngan ape aku luah kan…hihi!!….
“untukmu akan ku semaikan.. cinta sejati tiada bandingan….lalalala…. warisan wanita terakhir…lalala….” hopefully ~~(me!!)..hihihi.. (Hyde : die tengah potong ayam….. bucuk2!!-sowei kacauu…)…:X.. yeh2.. suke lagu nie maroon5 “she will be loved”… huh.. maybe citer arini blum sampai end die.. but i still nak publish post nie!!huhuhuhuhu….. to be continued baby..”Love is alwizz….on the airr……”…
Late nite, tak mcm sebelum nie….. lotsa thingz happened.. alwiz happened!!sweetie **** called him!!n i know.. then, i get hurt.. aku sendiri pon xtau sampai bila… maybe i’M gonna loose ma luv… or maybe ni sume dugaan utk jumpa ma true luv… feel like cryiing… i am.. crying..!!let the tears feel down..!!and rite now…aku rs kehilangan org yg sayang aku…!!hopefully tomorrow will be a gud day for me…!!!damnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!….”love is suckkkkk!!!!”:(….
HELP ME……HELP ME…HELP ME….
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
tudayyyyyyyyyy……
wake up earlyyy..inde muningg.. actually not really that “early”la… 8.50am, ;;)…. ad bekfastttt!!…. wohh.. after that, siap2.. n bout 10.30am, gi Sban,1st gi isi minyak 20inggit.. then way to Bank Muamalat.. – tuk bank in yuran pemprosesan UITM…huh!! malass betuii… cari bank tuh satu hal, sib baik dah tanye membe mlm td… at last jumpe gask!!-bank in RM16….
then, after gi Bank, jenjln wif mum… bli make-up stuff aku dah abiss.. LOreal-ideal Balance, huh!!Da!!!! abiss 70inggit duit aku!!… man… mane nak cari duit lagi?????????????… heh.. rs sad pon ade!! duit tade, nak kuar pon cam malas, sian mengenangkan diri sendiri!!Then, d sum lunch kat Restoren Serba NIkmat.. makan mee bandung + carot susu!wuuhhh… kenyang pewuttt aku….w/pun tak bape besh… … Then, baru balik… Hyde dearie, asik mzcal2..aku cam majuk skit ngan die so xreply..maybe aku nie mmg jeniss cepat emo, senti,…sensitip.. etc.. etc.. but, aku cepat sejuk…!!!maybe..cepat trasa tp senang baik-kool!!yelah nak gaduh benda yg not big deal…!n maybe aku trasa pon coz i got that feeling…deeply inside…
balik2 trus online… tp rs cam not inde mood.. so, pas tuh aku titun till 5.30pm, pergh beshh je titun, ilang sume probs…..!!-bebangun tengok mak nak uat minum petang, so… tetulun mum, n… sambil minum ptg kul 6.00ptg tuh tengok cite favs aku “Step To The Past”.. suke aku tengok Hong tuh… hehh…. comeyyyyy…. ;;)……;X… till 7.00pm, tengok sitcoms fav aku “my Wif & kids” suke citer tuh…!!ayah die comey….!!! sume comeyyy bagi aku kannnn???? heheheh…
hurmm… 7.40..sumting hyde cal, but kite nak solat.. then, he called me back bout 9.00….. at last, abisss dah persengketaan kiteorg…:)….Citer kat die yg aku dapat offer MMu,.. 3 yers.. mannn.. lamenyer… cam tensi gaks ave to choose antara nak amik Iinformation System Eng or Business Admin!! kenang2 lamernye….tp, apepon still aku kene cont gaks study aku…no matter wat…!! dapat surat dari kolej untuk KOnvo on 13sept, huh beshnye….1st time.. insyaAllah dapat pakai jubah..amik pic…!!!heheh…sronok lak rase padahal… bout 1month lagi tuuh… heheh … Nite tuh.. tengok tv, till 11.00pm after tengok “Dalam Hati Ada Cinta”…..online n cet wif Ben!! hey lame gilosss aku xcet ngan die, suddenly die appear…!!-, vc ngan Hyde…till 1.00am coz die nak tengok muvie … so ayu nak kene teman die!!:) till that muvie starts!feel likes aku sorang yang sangat sweeeeeeeeeeeetttt………………….. 
…am i???
continueee cetz wif ben & fami… hah!!Ben.. puas ati KO aku letakkk name ko nie???BEN..BEN..BEN…hehhehe… lupelak… Ben2…takut kantoiii ngan aweQsss die!!Ishh.. kantoii Ben dah de aweqss.. hikss..!!slame ni die xnah bagi tau pon…nak jaga saham la tuh.. heheh..!!!cukup2 la romeoooo ko tuhhh…!!baik ko jaga awekss.. n bakal mentue heheh… ….!!and aku ppon nak jaga “jepunggg” akuh… hihihi…..(pengakuan ikhlas nie!!!)hihi… Adushh penattttnyer mengarang mlm nie.. mcm banyak giler jer citer!!padahal rase.. everyday still same…but, perasaan je kkdg rase lain……. dunno laa…. pale dah macam sakit niee.. maybe time to… titun… enuf for today. ..
“eppy nite everybudiiiii……………………….”
(Listening to : Jikustik – Tak Pantas Untukmu)
sleep a lil sleep… to.. HYDE..yg tengah watching muvie.. call me after that..!!-disturb ma slumberness… :X
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Monday, August 09, 2004
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mooddyyyyy….
grumpy……..
siang mcm xsemanagt!!!! coz pepagi dah kene marah ngan mum!!!
benci mood camnie!!!……
**to be continued….
dunno wat to type!!maybe sumting bad evil! is controlling ma brain now!!emotional,stress!!..all day till nite!!thiz feeling wuz absolutely suckoz!!damn it!hate it!!…feel like crying!- feel like noone care!or maybe sum1 had changed – why people change??lone.. & all the negetive thinking still haunting…whirling,migling..etc..etc…gosh!! help me…!! sumting is missing …..!!relax ayu relax..!! i ave to smiles!..tapi ntah la.. today mmg mcm sedey-hyde pun dah benci aku- whr hez sweettttz words??:(!!hey..chear up!!:)…!!ok la.tomolooo lotsa things nak kene uat ….so, beta think for tomolooo..rather feel lk thz…
hopely i ‘ll got a butipul dreamz…& titun lena..
nite to ayu.. dunt cry ayu…:)
ayue at 8:05 PM
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Sunday, August 08, 2004
ngantuknyer……………
smlm maybe gayuting lame sgt dgn ****,
6.20am dah kene wake up…. smyg subuh n siap nak gi Convo Sista Eda ..
huh… sampai sane dlm kul 8.50am.
Penatnye… ghase…..bli bouquet of roses tuk k.eda baby.. cantiknye & banyaknye bunge huh!!xsabar nak tunggu convo aku then, leh dapat bunge…. hiks… :X…
balik2 trus cal ****!!then he called back..
letihnyee…. nap jap!!!…Zzzz…
“i am not your rolling wheels
i am the highway
i am not your carpet ride
i am the sky
i am not your blowing wind
i am the sky here
i am not your autumn moon
i am the night “- (Audioslave)
Then.. aku continue ceting ngan Fami,Dir, cha2, n Ejan lame tak cet ngan Ejan tuh!!Cam…tunite rase xbape sedap pewut, since dari UKm lagi, maybe de sumting bad yang aku dah mkn!:( rase macam loya2 n nak vomit jer…mood pon macam tak bape besh!! **** suh aku muntahkan!mann… aku taknah uat lah, cane nak force diri tuh uat (…Wooo…. Tapi sebab die, aku rase sihat….. Sebab die, aku akan titun lena malam nie… because ur r sumting to me..!!i wish i can fly to Jupuuuunnn…… now..!!! Tetibe rase nak de sum1, yang leh konsi every single thing ngan die, susah & senang, eppy n sad…buat die eppy dengan kita, sayang die & die pun sayang kita, bila mase tuh tiba agaknya? koz aku betul2 rase tak sabar….to give wat i got inside ma hart ( chewahh jewang kah aku ni???) hhiii….
nite baby nite…
ayue at 8:09 PM
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Friday, August 06, 2004
tudayyyy…morning..
tudayyy.. wake up late…late…bout 10.15am!! hiks!!!… tupun after “****” missed cal!! HIks… eppy…eppy!!! since bape arinie feel eppy jeerrr!!!………tamo cedih2 dah!! kite harap he wont changed & wll accept me the way i’m!..then kemas2 umah …sapu2.. n ma dad datang wif ma mums jap je dieorg dtg tgk ma atuk sakit…xsempat pon nak lunch dah go back 2 KeyeL!!dad ckp nak ajak aku gi Jaybee next week!!yeh..yehh.. beshnye jenjln…tgk ma mum makin cantik plak w/pun dah old skit….!!!hiks…!!nak jd pretty gaks…erks.. noh!!beauty….beautiful….(*)@ gorgeous….angelic..sexyyyy .(kiddin’). Nah!! ape yg ade skung pon dah enuf!! Alhamdullilah… yg penting biarkan Hidup ni indah coz hidup hanyalah sementara….
“In true love it is the soul that embraces the body”
“Dans l’amour vrai c’est l’ame qui embrasse le corps.” :(:(:(:(:(:(
ayue at 7:52 PM
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Thursday, August 05, 2004
“All bout ma luv……………………”
“harusnya ku tak pernah mencintamu…
walau semuanya indah… kau yang tak mungkin ku miliki… seperti pelangi hanya bisa menatapmu……”Dygta
wake up boutttt….. 9.00am, hiks.. kene kaco ngan bunyi misscal dr tutttt……
isot key….tau die yg missed call so dah rase epy dah!! 1st person yg kaco kite bile bebangun…menci!! xpe i felt cute bile bangun dr bed.. bebangun dari bed yg comey pink color wif lotsa luv n amore… ting-tong!! bgn2 trus hadap pc nie…. !!hair pon cam srabai!!tp still cute jer.. hiks…hehehe ;X apesal aku rs cute je arini… owh… kantoi…ingat last nite.. hihih.. 1st time dgr HYDE snored.. hiks.. snorer upenye die… hiks!!penat kottt.. trus rs nak gelaks… tulun-tulun!! . hyde..hyde…
arini masak sambal ayam.. guna cili padi.. pergh pedasss wooo… hiks.. tp beshh…Mum dah bising2 sbb aku jarang masak sendiri.. so arini kene gak wat sendiri, dah kene marah camtuh.. sedey gak ah… lepas ni try aa rajin kan diri tuk masak2… tp xpelah, walaupun simple but still besh gaks.. pewut pon cam lapar time tuh!!kreng-krong…. lalala…….
adeyy sakitt pewut tetibe.. bile asik g toilett oucchhhh……
ceting ngan shasha bebeh……..
n de som insident d’ happened…(*)
(Listening to : So7 – Tentang Hidup)
akhirnya semua…. terjadi juga… yg ku takutkan yg kurelakan…
………..
cuba berusaha tuk lebih mencintaiku…
……….
bertahan sayang… dengan doamu…
abisss……
(20.50)hurmmm… tetibe rs ingat sum1.. sedey lak rase!! ehh tamo2 tuley benda sedey(*)!! idup mesti eppy dlm blog nnie… kan?? ..
fikir nak uat ape lagi lepas blogging nie…. nak ceting ngan si ed-signor tulah!!
….. to be continued….till (22.30)
layan lagu jikustik nie…
“Maafkan aku
Bila menginginkanmu
Tak sepenuh hatiku
Tak sepenuh jiwaku lagi
Karna tlah biasa oh..”.. sedih la plak….
nak tgk Samarinda- Dalam hati Ada Cinnta…..
layan tv…..then, tengok The Missing, takut la plak….. sambil tuh, bee called… hihi..die tgh mumum “yogurt” sowei kite bit bz watching tb so bee… call me back after 12!!:P….. then ade sape tah salah no. yang call aku.. weird argh, no. aku kkdg senang sangat orang wrong no. y huh?sakit otak aku!!!….apetah yang specialnyer…:P femess kot no. 6791557 tuuh!huks….after 12, misscal umah die!!engganged jer!!nyampah… call Aniss coz die nak amik STPM.. (gudluck 2u %%-)..itso k then he called me back…. “gayuting” wif him till 1.40am ..heeh… i luv u baby…hope we can meet sumday!!when the time comes… let our dreams comes truth… i know u got warm hart & big enough to hold thiz luv that i’ll gv u 1 day…and i know i ws a gurl who was born to give and require sum1 to lavish care upon(hiks babyyyy)…..argh, u & me lotsa things r same except English songs huh!!me n ma “incubus”,SOAD,hoobs,bla2… things… but ur not wif suscubus…sronott..sronottt…!!!…(*)hiks… tonite nite we talk bout “tapak tangan”- 18 & 81…!!die story bout grandpa die…umah nenek die,lembulah…!!bout babies…etc..till card die abish cian die baru je charge td!!y bile ckp ngan die cam kejap jer… even nearly 2hours dah ckp!! then continue online… ceting wif fami at the same times cet ngan bee..(:X:X:X:X:X:X)…y huh?..makin lame aku makin sayang??moi pour toi??…destiny??…then, vc plak bfore sleep on bed ..man wat’d happened?the more u said u luv me, the more i feel u..the more i’m scared of loosing u…!!!!
Tetibe teringat muvie “The Notebook” how’s husband die jaga wif die ingatkan, story kat wif die yg dieorg luv each other from day to day till both of them died!!Muvie tuh from bestselling buks Nicholas Spark!! dizzyy…sleepy.. 2.40 trus shut down pc & titun…
gud nite to maself… swt dream :X
feel the emotion of luv, pliz let thiz dream for eva, pliz let me to ave him…pliz..pliz..
bonne nuit…
au revoiur….
ayue at 12:20 PM
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Wednesday, August 04, 2004
MunInG…. peRgh… wakee Up boUT 10.00 am, distracted by the sound of ma hs!!huks….
hiks nice slumberr…. then…. then….. bukak mate… n senyum….pandanG cermin n smile lgi… feel the rythmm of ma pewuttt….. lapor2…jap agi nak bekfas!!!kemas2 bed…..then online……
sumtimes…..
rase risau jer….. nape women de 6th sense…?? or “women intuition”. from ape yG diproofkan yg kite dah read kat cleo: using brain scaning.. researchers found when female participants wr asked to make thr mind blank, the paralimbic cortex (area kat brain yg filters emotionals brtindk pd enviro wz lit up, more activity than male… so thz means even when women’s thought are at rest, her brain stil interpreting & responding to wats happening around!!- thz how we gets intuive feelings & those hunches!! same as wat yg kite feels skung…. sumtimes @ normally ma instinct wuz absolutely rite!!…:P….
arghhhh still confuse… bout ma study, life… wat 2do after thz?!!
(23.10pm: now listening to : syed bercerita psal titanic… ice berg..iceberg.. etc)-merenyuk die tuh!!….
huh……..dengar ade org tu snoring…. hihi….
2.30am… time to titun….
gud nite ma lil teddy boo….
ayue at 3:29 PM
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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
“Where your pleasure is, there is your treasure: where your treasure, there your heart; where your heart, there your happiness.”- Saint Augustine
Yeh!!! Yeh,,,,,….
10.30pm, Blogie Dearie….u know i miiss u…
suprising me… new format of blogger!!wuah senang skit!!no need duing those html coding.. everythingz is oredi here!!huks!besh!huhuh…..
yeh! yeh! again… tunite… wif new monitor, new spirits , new loooks….swim2 together after been waited for bout nearly 1 month wif suffered + + joined wif lonely & irky moment !!those wuz sucks!!but tunite cam eppy moment comes backs- maybe!!yehh haa…. yehh!!! nomore thoz thoz topsy- turvy feelinG(hOpeFullY)!!… HuH.. rS naK mEnCeTiNG kan Dirieee….cian fami aku tak layan ko!!!
heheh……… wat else ehhh??…….. sronots.. sronots…
& cetiNggg..wIf.. ma..OnlY2 sOulmate!!shasha goddest!!i miSS u…..
then…… voice cet wif herbs… from 11.00pm tili 4.30am!! so much thinGs’d happened!!… sumthingz thatz not supposely known…….
“truth is seldom kind”-Dark Rider (Iris Johansen)
from now on…u’ll try to make me eppy, n i really appreciate it….n rmmber all the words u said tunite… Zzz..
mate pon cam dah ngantuks sesngt….
nearly 5.00am… i sleep a little maself…. gudnite blogie.. luv ya! cannot think animore. :
